Life has been so boring lately. As some of you know I moved out of my house a few months ago and have been solo since. However, working nonstop and having nothing to show for it is really starting to get to me. It seems like I am always smoking bud or chewing pills, I wish I could quit. I really want to quit for a straight week to lower my tolerance and let myself know I am capable of it, but I don't know if I am. Anymore life seems boring without being high. I hate having this mentality. I'm going to try my damndest to be clean for a straight week guys. I plan on using this thread for a daily blog basically. I hope everyone will smoke one for me! On the brighter side, I got a new bong and inside out piece a couple nights ago to go along with a half bag. Hopefully things will look up.
dude im totally with u, i bet when u get through that week and smoke ur next bowl you will totally feel good like u can accomplish anything beating an addiction once in a while is good mentally and physically i guess. oh yea and u will get totally stoned.
I think the reason for the depression I am in is because I moved out of my parents house. They found my stash and pipe and took it from me and I got pissed and left. Two months later and I am missing them like crazy, and am thinking about moving back in. Right now I work so many hours and have nothing to show for it bud a bong, pipe, and a bag of pot. I have back surgery on June 8th for the third time. I have a cyst that keeps coming back, and the doctors are scared it might be cancerous. It's really beginning to make me worry. I sit around when I'm not working and just do nothing. I miss having friends over and the like, but living out of town will do that. I had a girlfriend for over a year and recently lost her. I think I am still feeling her in my heart. Everything just seems so dreary. I wake up and immediately think about smoking some bud. Just an hour ago I smoked a bowl in the bong, and two bowls out of my pipe and took two painkillers. I feel great, sure, but sometimes I just want to be sober. I'll always sit and say I want to be sober and then turn around two hours later and think "Well it's Friday, I might as well toke since it's the weekend." But I am going to beat this. Sure, a week with no bud may not seem like much to you, but it is to me. I have been doing it for so long it has gotten out of hand. I will post some more after I try to get some sleep and play some PS2. Hope everyone is doing well.
hey, call up ur ex-girlfriend tell her im still feeling u deep inside maybe we can start over, or some shit dude depression aint fun. your just feeling this cause i guess u got nothing to look forward to and ur maybe feeling like noone cares about u like u lost ur gf and u feel she hates u and ur parents found that stuff and u like feel them pushing u away or something.
i guarantee u if u get through 3 days in the begining u can get through a month. just keep at it man its all in ur head. just meditate , find something soothing to do for ur brain. start joggin 15 mins man u know what i mean, ill get back to u on this thread.
I had to stop smoking for an upcoming surgery and I realized something. Pot isn't inherently bad but it can be. The problem is that it makes you content with boring things, when the effects start to wear off it's still the only thing that dulls down the sheer boredom of work. You just need to pace yourself, prefferabely keep your toking sessions to once a week, if you can't manage that then once a day. Like anything that's even remotely addictive the best way to end it is to just do it--not because it's easiest to do so but because it's probably the only thing that will actually work. smoking aside you need to get rid of the pills, those are addictive and very dangerous. I've seen friends completely fuck up their lives trying to get more pills. One of them even does the hardcore opiates now, things like coke and methadone.
I kinda went through the whole "I need to quit smoking phase". Yes it was very booring at first but I got over it and didn't smoke for 6+ months. You just have to trust yourself and say "NO". Start picking up some new hobbies to do while sober. Playing sports, musical insturments or anything else, just to keep yourself occupied. I've never lived on my own so I don't really know what its like. Things will ALWAYS get better. I've been though nine months of really bad depression; it was so bad that at times I tried to take my own life. But now its gone and I fell 100x better. Life is awesome and beautiful and you'll start seeing it soon! Never give and and keep pushing. A little bit goes a long way. Hope everything works out for you. Good luck.
I haven't smoked at all today but I really want to. I am thinking about just smoking once a day and slowing down. I wouldn't mind hitting the pipe right now.