I just need to vent this

Discussion in 'Real Life Stories' started by indica_x, Aug 8, 2008.

  1. I just need to vent i have no one to talk to about whats going on with me and its killing me inside. I have hit the lowest point in my life. I got into an accident on graduation day which left my driver side door completley fucked up, luckily though my car still worked. I got it fixed about a month ago which cost me 2000 dollars. A few weeks ago i was robbed of 400 dollars. For the last two weeks i have been masking my severe depression with opiates. 3 days ago i was involved in a horrible horrible accident. I fell asleep on the wheel ended up flying across a median hitting a truck head on going around 30-40mph. I totalled my car but my seat belt saved me and my brothers life. I was "lucky" that me and my brother werent seriously injured or killed we walked away with minor bruises. I am tramuatized from that i relieve that accident so many times a day. I have nightmares about getting into accidents. I feel so fucking alone in this world. I have no friend were i live only in my hometown that i moved from a few years ago. I want to end my life but the only thing keeping me from doing it is that it would hurt my parents so much i just couldn't do that to them. I am in huge debt i just dont know what to do anymore. I have lost control of my life, im sorry to bring such a sad story of self pity but i just can't keep these feelings to myself anymore.
  2. Dude dont do anything drastic.
    Your life may still be the same tomorrow but you can take steps to help yourself, things always change and will not remain the same as long as you put in some effort.
    Life may all get us down sometimes, but we can work to get over it.
    Id suggest if its so bad, move back to your hometown with your family and friends if its at all possible, try to cope with your depression and other emotions in a safe, effective way.
    I dont have much more advice than that besides to make sure to talk to someone whether it be a family member, friend, or phychiatrist, since im no where qualified to say what to do and what not to.
  3. go see a counselor man. I think a lot of churches have them available, or you'll find one easily enough in a phone book or google search..

    I went through a rough patch once, didn't know why I felt bad. I don't think it was depression but I was just unhappy for a long time. I went to a counselor and told her. She didn't actually have any magic solution or anything but just talking to her made me feel better then I went to work in England for a while and I've been fine ever since.

    I really recommend it man. GL!
  4. I have been were you are (or close) find some friends to kick it with even if its not people you really like.
    Any company is helpful you have been truamatized socially and phisically society has failed you but its not to late just work your way up hang out with a friend then work your way up till you can handle parties and what not.

    As for the debt you can get out of it even if its alot there are many ways to slowly pay your debt

    dont give up hang in there
  5. It'll pass dude trust me. Right now i feel like crap because ive pushed all my really close friends away so much that now they dont even talk to me.
    You just have to fake a positive attitude and think about how good life will be when you get it back on track.
    Think positive and fake it till you make it.
  6. I read your story and so many parts sounded familiar. It helped me to read your post to remind me what I went through. I really think I know what you are going through. I too have numbed depression pain with opiates. I too have been in a serious car accident. I know how horrible the living nightmare of post traumatic stress is.

    We need to break this overwhelming problem down into easy to chew pieces. Everything is going to suck for a little bit but it feels so good when it doesn't hurt anymore. The pain being lifted from your soul is better then any high ever, stick around for it.

    The coolest thing after all this is over is the amazing self pride you will have. I don't know how to explain it more than its like coming back from war. You know you just went through hell, but hey you made it were others would have quit. You just don't look at life the same, you are changed and for the better. Right now you are being forged in fire. The final product will be a stronger person who people will look up to.
  7. Yeah dude, it'll take time but things will get better.

    Just keep your head up.
  8. Break your problems down into manageable pieces. I'm sure your family loves you a great deal and will do whatever is in their power to help you.

    Take it one step at a time, I am sure that you will get through this and be a better person for it. Always remember that we experience personal growth by perservering through adversity, not taking the easy road.

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