i have some really...

...incredible people in my life.

for the past few weeks, ive been in the gnarliest funk where i just felt like i had lost all faith in mankind. it seemed like everybody that i came into contact with--my friends, roommates, family, classmates, teachers, co-workers--was just... UGH! i hated everyone! it seemed like everywhere i turned, there was self-righteousness, judgment, shit-talking, lying... i also happened to be out of bud all last week, which was no good because i have pretty bad insomnia and have been getting pretty bad anxiety lately. all together, it was just a shit-tastic week.

fast forward into this past weekend, and... wow. i finally came out of my room (id been hiding from humanity because of the afore-mentioned observations) and very, very tentatively hung out with a few of my friends... tested out the waters, i guess... and-- YAY! i was pleasantly surprised... seems like everybody pulled their heads outta their asses (well, not everyone, but most).

everybody was more easy-going this weekend... relaxed, fun, kind. i broke the hose for my vape a few months ago and just hadnt gotten around to buying a new one (cause i love glass so much).. and last night, two of my friends (not even really really close friends... friends of my roommate actually, that i happen to get along with really well) walked into my living room and handed me a brand-new hose for the vape and said, "here."

and... it just blew my mind. its a really small gesture, but just that one singular act reminded me that yeah, there are lots of assholes in the world. im not gonna like everyone, and im certainly not gonna be friends with everyone... but there are genuine, reliable, sweet people out there.

i always like to make my friends feel special, whether its cooking them dinner @ my house, showing up with a surprise joint, texting them when im thinking about them, and keeping up on whats going on in their lives-- and it really means a lot when you get that same kinda treatment back from your friends. cause when you get up on that pity-pot and start feeling like nobody cares anymore.. it feels really good to know that somebody still does.

all this ranting over a vaporizer tube, but yeah... it just got me thinking. tell your friends that you love them and if you cant get the words out, do something special for them because theyre worth it. your friends are the family that you get to choose and while some may come and some may go, others will be your life-long support system and your go-to-guy/gal when shit gets tough.

(**on a side note, im entirely aware that it was probably just ME being an asshole last week. nobody got any nicer within the past week, nobody got any less judgemental... i think that i was just in a bad place mentally lately and it made me turn all my anger onto everybody around me... which sucks. but, eh... im only human.**)