I have this freind. She is my ex. We talk on occasion and text every now and then. She starts almost all of the txt conversations( I would start them but I feel as though she doesn't want to talk to me unless she starts txting). Anyways when we do hang out or something it's usually like watching a movie at my house,concert and sometimes small partys. When we are together we very close. Lots of playful teasing and me putting my arm around her or her sitting between my legs. I would say it's kinda intimate because she doesn't do that with other guy freinds. We lost our virginity to each other when we were 15 or so and remaind friends. We only dated for a month or before we had sex and it wasn't till I broke up with her did we have sex. Long story short I feel like I love this girl. Her beauty her personality the way she looks at me. I just want to know do you think I don't love her? I should be happy just knowing she is happy. Still I want to be her bf because I guess I'm not happy. Am I selfish? Thank to anyone who reads/understands this wall of txt. I'm very high and this has been bothering mentor years.