So uh, yea. Kinda embarrassing, but I don't really know anyone here so I'll just go on ahead. Basically, I'm 20 and have never had any relationship whatsoever. The most that's happened is a girl kissing me. And that's actually happened a couple of times now, and I never can even react it seems. I don't even know why... it's weird. Like, I'm normally fairly quiet, but around girls I'm like... I dunno, I guess I'm just intimidated or something? I'm very happy and content with who I am and I don't really want to change myself, but that's one thing that I just hate about myself and i don't even understand why I'm like that. I mean, there have been a couple times where girls come up to me. It's not like I don't get the hint, but I just can't seem to act on it. At all. Which comes to the recent thing... So, there's a girl. Actually seems real cool and chill, and is pretty into music--a huge plus for me. I met her a few months ago, actually. Again, she came up to me (I don't think I've ever even approached a girl) and literally gave me her number. I mean, she made it discrete by saying how she wanted to find some drummers to jam with (she plays guitar, and she came up to me after my band played a show for a friend's party), but I'm sure just about any other guy would've got the hint. But I just was like, "Sweet, I love jamming with people!" She never called, and after a while I was just like w/e... no jam. Then a few weeks later, she called me. She said I should come hang out (she's friends with one of my best friend's friend or something, and they were hanging out at his place) and even said I should call her sometime to hang out. So yea... I got this hint this time hah. Well anyway, I went over, was my normal awkward self around girls, and then we went for a cruise (she's pretty big on weed, I guess ). This was back when I was only smoking just every once in a while cause of work. So long story short, I was goooooone and basically was just a fucking rock with some wobbly legs. I ended up just going home that night (by choice) and felt bad and stupid the following day. Like, I actually felt depressed for solid week cause I just was so disappointed in myself (and I don't blame the weed, although it definitely didn't help cause I was soooo high). And for whatever stupid reason, I assumed she now hated me and didn't want to hear from me. Bit my lip and moved on. Now the other day, I saw her again. My band had gig this weekend, and she came out. When she came in, I was chillin with some friends near the entrance so she said hi and smiled, then came up and hugged me. She walked off with some friends and I stupidly just sat like a stump and didn't go to talk to her or anything. BUT, it shot down my dumbass theory of "she doesn't give a rat's ass about me," and I feel like I should call her now. Especially since she basically made the "first move" twice (hell, you could argue 3+ times). So I definitely think I need to do something cause I want to get to know her. Cause as pathetic as it might sound, a similar situation has happened a few times before and not doing anything on my part definitely doesn't show interest, and thus ends it... Aaaaand, that's basically where I'm stuck. I want to call her, but like... I'm so horrible at this kinda stuff, like I don't even know what to do. I'm like a fcking pre-pubescent 12-year-old boy ahaha. So, like what do I do? I've figured out that I should call her, and ask if she wants to hang out or something, but then I'm lost. And how can I get over this stupid "fear" I have of women, or whatever the fck you want to call it? Cause I hate it, it's just stupid and I know it's stupid, but I can't seem to get passed it. sorry that ended up a bit longer than I wanted but yea... thanks if anyone actually reads this, and even more thanks if anyone can give me some help, even though I'm just some newb posting on your forums. /sucks up pride and hits "Submit New Thread"