I've been smoking a lot for about 2 years. I've always enjoyed my high and was always able to maintain my cool. As i kept smoking, i started getting very bored during my highs with my friends. After that i took a 4 month break from it, then i started smoking again and i get paranoid, i twitch a lot, my face looks really stupid (one eye more opened, mouth making stupid face), i find myself very hunched over after thinking a lot, i keep worrying, when i try to relax it doesnt work, this leads me to worry about worrying, i get really paranoid and think my friends are going to hate me, i cannot maintain my cool when im talking to someone who shouldnt know im high (which always worked before). I dwell on all my problems... this is all when im trying to relax!! When i try to control myself, it gets better, but still bad. but i thought you're supposed to not control yourself when you're high. I try doing fun things that i always enjoyed but my worrying negative brain finds a problem in EVERYTHING. Its like i hate everything around me, everything im doing, and i just cant enjoy myself. Bear in mind its not all negative, like i said when i try very hard to control myself (instead of relaxing), it feels a bit better. I took yet another break after that of a month, went back on and its still the same. I've been regularly exercising for a few years and my diet isnt that good but its not any worse than an average stoner lol. So please help me.
If you can master this, "Not to laugh at human actions, not to weep at them, nor to hate them, but to understand them." I promise you, you will posses a priceless and unprecedented calm - enlightenment. Understanding will fill the void of mundane and futile emotions, trust me. All you can control on this earth, 100%, are your own thoughts - so, just learn to understand, and not react. You don't find peace, you maintain it!
I do this constantly.. have been doing it since like 8th grade but I only realized recently due to a psychology course I was taking. Absolutely amazing how true it is. I hate being the silent/awkward kid in big groups, but it's always interesting to watch other people interact and see how they act in certain situations.
Weed is just a thing. peopld try to make it sometjing its not. You did it for a while and Now yohr board of it. Its not a Big deal
Yeah I no longer smoke on the regular now it's just not for me and it's no big deal. I found once I matured I realised that I didn't really enjoy smoking as much as I was. So either just stop or cut back, I smoke every now and then if I am in the mood, it's just weed it's nothing special any more.
