I'm not really seeking as much help as I am looking for an outlet to express. If you have similarities or have advice go ahead and share. Well, just read the topic, you get the idea of what I'm trying to say. I've always been that weird, shy, introvert guy, and it never helps that I'm overweight/obese. It's something I am working on, I'm transitioning to vegetarianism, and I've lost about 15 pounds. Its not so much the weight stopped me, it had to be a combination of everything; having been all of those characteristics and having to go through physical discrimination. I never really sought out a relationship through my entire life. I had crushes and all that, or still do, but never acted on it. Around 8th grade though I took a really backwards approach to sexuality. I started getting very interested in Catholicism and had even gotten to the point of wanting to be a catholic priest. I complain about this sometimes, but it shifted my morality from being a shy, fat kid into someone who outright avoided women. Why be around girls when I want to not be tempted into the idea of a relationship. We could get all deep in that, but that is the way I thought my senior year of high school. To make this short so people will read it, just read the title of the thread. I blush, I'm shy, I have zero confidence, and even as a college guy I experience crushes like I'm in 7th grade. idk, its nice just to organize thoughts, but if anyone has any opinions or has advice please share. I'd like to not kill myself transitioning my current state into one that is more mature. I'm not wanting to go and be a party boy or have casual sex. That doesn't fit into my personality or belief system. I'm not trying to change who I am fundamentally. I'm just trying to improve myself, and be the best that I can be.