Hi there, I don't really know how to place it, but I never enjoyed my life for the past years. I have friends, a nice home and just started a good job, though. But I never feel really "connected" to others or to myself. It's just like, my life is totally OK, but I am never happy. I started treating my chronic headache and migraine with weed and the first time I got high it was like it changed my world. It was the first time I felt truly happy in what seemed like a lifetime. But all of my friends are very conservative and don't like or want to try weed. It isn't legal for recreational use where I live, anyway. I don't want to be dependend on a drug to feel good, so I stopped consuming weed like two weeks ago. But I feel so damn bad right now. My doctor doesn't want to prescribe weed and the medical marijuana system here is really bad anyway. I don't know, maybe I'm depressed or whatever, but I feel like nothing can make me happy right now. Besides weed. I dream of just smoking with some friends and chill, but that won't happen in the near future. Do you think it is a good idea to just smoke weed alone until I (hopefully) get better one day? At the moment it feels like my happiness is only dependend on whether I can get high or not. Thanks for your help!