I am my own God.

About me

I'll skip the introduction, here's 2 experiences that give you an idea of who I am.

If i control my own destiny, are not i god but have even more power. I have the ability to take life, but i don't because I also have the ability to profoundly alter the course of nature by nurturing it and creating it, saving it.

Experience #1 black magic:

These are simple things, Imagine an entire life of spiritual enlightenment, science, biology, mathematics, mechanical engineering, psychology, general construction, war like environment in a mental safe-hold. These are the few things i hold close to heart, everything that is my intelligence. The rest i can't name, there's just so much i went through, my favorite thing though had to be black magic.

The story,

When i studied the forces of 'Demonic like rituals' languages, I found common patterns and interesting dialogue that really had me thinking. So after some study i found the most interesting curse, based on it's construction, the sound of each word, lots of factors. "Warning - personal curse 10 fold for 10 years" I was like whatever but i placed 5 candles in a pentagram, placed an antique wooden elephant with a pit in the top and grabbed a piece of paper. I wrote someones name on it, said the curse (said their name at the end) placed the paper in and set it on fire. With the candles burning a breeze hit from the right, now usually you don't notice some wind, but this shit was like a "Hey ---------- I'll see you soon don't worry about that" it was seriously like a deal with the devil.

So after that his car got fucked up, his missus left him then there relationship was on the rocks. Non stop bad luck I'm not even joking. Fast forward a year later I'm leaving the job and didn't put the two together, the ritual was just a regular night most nights it was intellectual science again (have never stopped so it was something new everyday, Information on experiments in botany, social study's it doesn't end.

Now this is the part I've dwelled on, I copped the same shit for 10 years 10 fold, it was a year for Him, initially i did the calling in 09, by fucking 2020 I was insane. For real though the last 2 years have been the best of my life the 10 before that I endured enough physical pain and mental anguish to kill the average man (stroke, heart attacks, suicide attempts defying the boundaries of emotional capability and still sticking to my mission) I'm still quite happy but i never the list goes on and it took a toll.

That's a brief summary of my 'black magic experience'

The mission I refer to is to save the world. It's not unattainable for me. Yeah sounds crazy? Come live in my head I'll show you a supersonic ion system that works in any condition. This can be done in 50 years.
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Experience #2 war

The story,

Now, I'm a peacekeeper. I have a crystal clear memory, and i know whats real in all my thoughts. I remember talking to people on Yahoo Chat in 1994 who linked me to 2 people who were having a discussion about the allowed body count each year in internal conflict in a certain nation (he said i should speak to them). So i was Invited to a conversation and i required translators i believe it was just whoever these people were but people who knew English it wasn't official this was a back curtain type deal.

After a conversation i talked each party down to 1000 deaths a year. Now, I'm not involved in any type of conflict anymore and i don't want to be, and for some reason i think the ability to stop a serious conflict is an attribute not a lot of people have, all i did was tell this guy my opinion, i was just a kid man, and they probably did do what i negotiated the points to, but looks like everyone's breaking the rules, I'm never going to go into any conversation with anyone who tries to tie me into something like that again.

This experience shaped the course of my life. It gave me perception on what happening in other country's. Where i live every major city has coastline, there's million of us not billions. we all know each other in our city's and like to look out for one another. The people i talked to send tanks into the streets.

Note: I dont remember much more of this, as it was 26 years ago, so much happens in a day.

The main point? I've never appreciated my wealth, I saved people but allowed others to die, I had the cajones to get involved in something I knew i shouldn't of.
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That's it for now. If you have similar experiences I would like to talk to you. It could possibly help me with what I need a reference for and/or we can just chat. I like to help anyone in need.


Thanks for your time! And all the best.