the first 8 months or so, I only smoked on fridays-sundays. Then I went a year straight, not ONE day sober. I felt like ass, could only eat when I was high, etc. Now I've been smokin' daily for about 2 years, and I can say that marijuana has helped me. It helped me see my problems, showed me the TRUTH. Not my truth, but the truth, ya know? I can't really word it, but I feel "awakened" almost. Like, it showed me that I can do whatever the FUCK I want to do. Anyone feel me on this?
I guess I don't understand. I am thankful for it, because at times I don't know if I would have made it without weed. But there comes a point where the issues in your life will overpower the power of any chemical. And if you're stoned 24/7-365...how do you even know what reality is? The awakening is great, but sometimes the true awakening comes when you see the world through sober eyes again. And I mean, long enough for your body and mind to reset.