Ok let me start by saying I haven't been here long but I think this forum has saved my life (suicide). All my life I've been very lonely, I have friends but no one I can talk to, never felt any emotion not even to my parents. I don't really know where to start so ill start from as far back as I can remember. Erm.. well my family has never been a family, I'm the eldest of 3 children. Mum and dad drug addicts spending what little money they had on unmentionables. I basically lived on the streets stealing for money and food (I was about 10ish at this time, so I wasn't very good and got into a load of trouble. My sister was 8 so I had to get steal for two and younger brother was 1 so he pretty much ran on our leftovers) eventually social services found out what was going on and we all got split up into different homes, we'll I got separated, and I denied my new home as it was just wrong, the opposite of my lifestyle at the time and so i wouldn't eat with them but I'd steal their food and walk off too eat it. Both parents got bunged up in jail for like 5 years. Away from family life when I was around 13 and in secondary shool (high school) I would get into a load of fights because people would take the piss out of me. This carried all the way until I was about 16. At 16 I was addicted to unmentionables, living like a zombie in my room 24/7 injecting and snorting my life away (I had been stealing for 6 years almost daily so I got pretty good so I'd steal for my dealer to get my unmentionables). One of these days around 16-17 my dad came to my foster parents door with a knife claiming I was the worst thing to happen in his life, stabbed my in the arm and the hip, I had to detain him, which wasn't too hard considering he was on unmentionables, and called the police. He's in prison now for years, tbf I couldn't give a fuck he's dead to me. One day this random person from my school turned up at my door asking if I wanted to take a ride in his car, at this point I couldn't give a fuck so I just went and over time we became "friends" and he managed to stop me doing unmentionables over the period of a year (he's very anti drug and hates that I smoke weed now). A few months back I started to get into religion as I heard they were accepting and the priest I went to testify too told me that God accepts me for my wrong doings and he will accept me into heaven where everything that's horrible will be taken away and I will be given everything I love. This got me seriously thinking about suicide like really suicidal too the point I'd go out of my way to put myself in danger so I'd die. Then a month or so of this suicidal life I learn that my sister had committed suicide and this broke me and on the day I was planning to end it all I checked my phone and browsed the Internet for a bit to try and enlighten myself about the afterlife and on a random whim I stumbled across this forum full of stoners, all living happily and instantly I got accepted as one of you. I've never been accepted into anywhere before, always being judged, always hated. And I thank you GC brothers and sisters. You have all saved my life. And I thank you so much and I love you all. Since I joined this forum my life has become exponentially better, I have friends, I have a job, and most importantly I'm happy with my life Tl;dr had a shit life, was gona commit suicide found this forum and you all saved me Sent from outer space.
Sorry, I have a hard time reading the block of text. But I get the jist and I'm there with ya, man. This place saved me from possible suicide. Welcome to the club.
Haha ikr quite hate reading big blocks of text :L And yeah start up a new GC hospital for suicidal/depressed people or sommin init haha Sent from outer space.