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[ame=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=REFpi7lLNgc]‪3 Peat Instrumental - Lil Wayne‬‏ - YouTube[/ame]

Verse kicks in at :29

Opposite of nostalgia

My momentums fading I feel my heart start racing
Tracing me back to a place when I saw nothing but hating
I grew up around people who thought I just a lame
No friends for me my mind became taimed to contain my anger
Every day I talked shit with strangers
I'm warning you bitches I am nothing but danger
This marijuana makes me feel nothing but stranger
I'll swoop you up and let you dangle from steel clothes hanger
I used to scream fuck the world because of how I was treated
It felt like if I was put in heaven I wouldn't even be greeted
I drowned my emotions with bowls and blunts
I looked away from the problems that I needed to confront
I was 6 foot 2 in middle school man it didn't feel cool
I was taller than some kids when they stood on a pedestal
They used to grin because I didn't fit in
I smiled back but my blood boiled with sin under my skin
I wanted to destroy them all until the cops pulled me off
Hell I wish afterwords their face got covered over with a cloth
They thought I was soft because I never fought back
But I was raised to walk away instead of attack
I got panic attacks from smoking too much weed
It's the worste feeling ever it was the last thing I needed
So I pleaded to God can't you just help me out
I feel like a flower in a drought and I am dying to sprout
I used to dream about the day that my life would get better
Somtimes I contimplated writting suicidal letters
But I would never do that I could never take my life
Fuck letting their strife deprive me of having kids and a wife
I've been through a lot my parents always saught to be fought
I quickly caught on and understood each one of their thoughts
It's not about who wins it's about who raises their chin
and get's clensed of the sin to the peace within
Back then I didn't know it but life is just a struggle
The only easy money gets you in trouble with with just bars to snuggle
I could juggle three bubbles before I get rich
I wish I could take a pinch out of what Bill Gates gets
But that's not how it works you have to start as a clerk
And assert to the top until you can give yourself a big smirk
Don't mind all the jerks what can they possibly hurt
Don't ever let someone divert you from your dirt
Because your ground is your own
And your pride is your tone
So be prompt like a microphone and say leave me the fuck alone
I went from mentally feeling as small as a gnome
Now I'm a giant prone from having hate registered into my dome
If you've ever been alone beleive me I understand
It feels like being spanned out like a wristband
I'm reaching for someone but I can't be with her
She's like a gem and I'm the flowing water just making a whisper
Antagonizing like a blister I drown it with bitter liquor
Were so close but far away like Earth from the Big Dipper
My heart feels like it's going through a wood chipper
A fever couldn't make me feel sicker
I'm ill as an HIV positive stripper
I need a sitter to make sure I don't do anything embitter
But I'm slicker and quicker so I run out into the streets
And crack concrete as I'm running to were she sleeps
I love you more than life will you please be my wife
I've never felt such strife it feels like a jagged knife
I promise to be with you for life so what do you say
You will never have dismay if you just say ok