please help me sort out my thoughts. i dont think anyone can captivate me, i dont enjoy anything, i float, i wont ever enjoy a relationship. it's not that i cant gain from others, its that i dont know what gain is, i dont know the difference between death and life. it all leaves me hopelessly lost, but hope isnt really anything to brag about. and being lost implies your going somewhere. which i suppose im not. im not depressed, because nothing is able to bring me down. or change me at all. i believe we all just play and that we do it to play and not to get anywhere but truly then playing or not playing is the same.
Hey, we get high. Cannabists tend to see the "game" people like to play as a way to make sense of their meaningless lives. Here's a little help...When I play Monopoly, I don't play to win. I play to keep anyone from winning. See, it's a game. A game. A game. A game. or you can watch this, http://forum.grasscity.com/spirituality-philosophy/580344-indigos.html
but if there is no point to the game, then the game exists only to those who are looking for something to do
Look at it this way. We are all capable of more than what we are told. The problem is that most people don't know it or are too afraid to admit it. They're afraid of failure. But for the ones that get disconnected, there is really not much to fear anymore. I know it seems like there's nothing to do...But where else are you going to fucking go? It's a long ways till you die, unless you kill yourself, so you might as well find a way to entertain yourself. You could at least take advantage of people's dangerous ignorance for your own pleasures or to help others. Maybe spend your time doing something you enjoy.
Fuck it. If your really feeling it, you could go out guns blazing, suicide by cop. In fact, it would be natural selection, because those in the vicinity who were prepared to witness or be involved with something, survive, and those who didn't perish. Survival of the strongest, the quickest, the smartest, the quickest to adapt. Oh and lol @ the indigos.
i dont want to do things because i might as well, i also might as well blow the back of my brain out. the end result is the same cause everything is the same. im being difficult. but i swear i am not just trying to disagree with you. i really dont understand the rest of the world
Like my fictional grandfather used to say, "If you ain't got an answer, you ain't high enough yet. Keep smoking, you pussy."
Welcome to earth. I just fought stuff like this out with my mushroom trip. If you don't want it, blow your brains out. I actually thought about it. You are in one moment. That moment is not good? Remember there are many moments. But they stop if you kill yourself. I understand myself, and I try to understand my friends and people I see. I mean , I barely understand myself and not even all of me. I DON"T understand the world, so I'm just being me. It's all I can be really, cause I can't not be me, then I'd be somebody else. Trippy. The point is, life moves. You HAVE NO IDEA what is going to happen. NO IDEA. If you kill yourself, I do. You die. Who knows after that. Everyone who knows you will grieve but only to make themselves feel better about themselves. Eventually they will be past it. And eventually everyone who even knew you will be dead. You just missed out on who knows because you couldn't take the heat? Come on man. Don't you like grasscity, how about the sun. What about mountain climbing. Go fishing, smoke weed drink beer. Take mushrooms under the moon, but only if your ready.
Also, it doesn't seem like dogs ponder how to dog or cats how to cat. So you gotta stop pondering how you you. If your desire of the day is to lay in bed just sleeping or whatever, do it. That's more freedom than going to some socially accepted activity just to feel like you're worth something or to feel like you're part of something. When you don't live in insecurity, you're 1up over 99% of people.
i apologize if i gave the wrong impression. I did not mean to say that i might commit suicide. I just wrote a really long and not very organized response and i deleted it. thank you all for answering, but i dont know what to say, i dont have anything to say.