I feel like I've been depressed for so long and can never be happy, before I used to just smoke weed to help the stress but after smoking so much of it you start to lose your love for the stuff and feel worse. I have so many things on my mind that I cant even seem to focus on anything. Some days I don't even feel like getting out of bed but I still do because I don't want to ruin my life even more. I'm lonely all the time because I have no family around and can't seem to find a girlfriend. A lot of it is family problems, and personal health issues too. Depression pills won't seem to help and I'm tired of taking them. I just came on to vent and see if anyone can help me feel normal and loving life again. I feel better after talking about my problems.