It's true. It is so easy to act as if you are living your life, but really just be an empty thing following a routine fed to you because you never stopped to look at what you were, or are even now still, consuming. I don't think introspection is self-centered, and I don't think it's a waste of time. It shows you your fears and ugliness. We all have such uncomfortable aspects of our mind. They are meant to be incorporated into our conscious state. We can then use them for growth. Without introspection the world tells you what you are and your inner self is trampled. The world will always give mixed messages. Somedays your the best and others the worst. In different situations you are of different worth, and can even be a different person. The world has a lot to say about you. Deafen the world. Ask yourself who you are. Spend time in your own mind, with your own thoughts. Feel your soul dwell. Accept all that you are and if you come to discover you don't like who you've become, take yourself back from the world. Upon introspection you can satisfy and heal your soul in ways nothing in the world can. With such awakening you may become less interested in self pleasure because your internally at peace. In such a state, since all is connected, you will change the world around you. Your mind is more powerful than you might believe, be with it, not against it, or even in this hectic day, nearly without it. Be wholly you. Have you like me, ever felt you weren't living as yourself? Did cannabis help enlighten you also? If no, then what? If yes, then was it a big part? Thank you for reading.
yeah i've felt like i wasn't living as myself before. there's been a lot of times where i'm disgusted in the way i'm living and wonder how i got there and what parts of me are still the same and what has the world around me made me change.
We are all a product of our environment and a product of those we associate with. Everything that's happend in your life leading up to this point has made you what you are. If a negative past is haunting you, then you have to try extra hard to make the present and future postive. It seems like you know what you need to do already. Within your capabilities, you can make life whatever you want. For instance maybe you wanna be an astronaut but pursuing that goal really isn't feasable for you. Instead, you can read lots about space and astronaut training thus giving you the mind state of an astronaut.