It seems like after a 5 year span of 6 people very close to me dieing (My grandfather, who meant the world to me, my stepbrother who Od on heroin, one of my aunts, 2 cousins and a very close friend) Its just starting to seem like nothing even happened, and I'm just blocking it out. I'm noticing I'm kind of always in a "neutral" state most of the time. It's either having a great time (which is only when I'm with my circle of friends/band smoking), at a state of no emotions what so ever, or rip shit pissed. I've heard it's bad to do that and bottle it up, but why the fuck not. Whats the point of being sad for so long, you know? Does anyone else feel the same?