Well I had sex with this chick about 6 months ago, and for a time being, nothing came from it. Then it started hurting to actually sit down. This chick has herpes. I started looking up the symptoms, and from what I have concluded, I have it. (used a condom every time) I haven't actually gotten it officially checked out yet, even though i have had the time to do so, probably do to not wanting to actually acknowledge it from a medical standpoint. Only one of my friends knows, and she only knows because me and her want to get it on (she lives in Canada but comes to visit every few years when she can.) When I started coming to my own conclusions about it, I got a little depressed. Having thoughts about actually being alone forever because no one would want to do anything if they knew. I thought for a small portion of it, if i was at a party i wouldn't tell anyone and just say "I was drunk" But...I'm a good guy, I can't lie about that. Even though I'm not bound by legal issues (having not gotten a STD test) I'd still fele like a huge ass hole if i gave it to someone and i didn't warn them. I'm not looking for people to tell me what I want to hear. I'm looking for people to tell me what I need to hear. Really, I know it wasn't worth those 3 fun times with her. But at that time I figured "i won't get infected" but it seems as though i have been infected. I mean, I don't get outbreaks very often, (normally happens on the cheeks of my ass, no where else.) I thought for a time it could be hemorrhoids, but that was denial. Not sure really. Just trying to take it one day at a time. If any other blades have dealt with any STDS before, some stories, (mild no need for extreme details, unless you wish to post them) would be helpful. Just trying to take it day by day and not crack under the realization that "fuck, I'm stuck with this for the rest of my life"