Grasscity what have i done :(

Discussion in 'General' started by tjf420, Jan 4, 2008.

  1. Ok so im not looking for help, remorse or so on..... Ive just feel terrible right now for something i've done and i have to get it off my chest..

    For the past few months my dad has recieved many pain killers.... Percs, vikes etc... I foolishly behind my father's back and his trust.. stole MANY of his pills and took some and even gave to my friends foolishly... Of course, he found it and i jus got done with a long stern talking to with my dad...

    He was very upset with me,...extremely dissapointed and doesnt know how he can trust me again.. He says i cant have any friends over the house or call.. but i can still go out and do watever cuz he said im atleast 18... I've never seen my dad like this before, very emotional.. sobbing and even had me going the entire time..

    I feel i've become addicted to pain killers... this sucks they are amazing.... but.. wat i've done to my dad is hurting me so bad right now.. I never thought I would see him sob other than his father dying.. I've just come here to vent and get it off my chest so someone would know.. I dont know wat to do with myself right now.. I work hard, i go to school and i try to buy my weed.. thats all I ask, i never meant to be this thief, lying, stealing.. thats wat i did when i was fucking 6 or 7..... not 18 Im becoming something I hate, something i've badmouthed before.... and im not going to let it happen.. I cant I'll figure out something but for now... i just need to vent cuz i've just been a horrible son:(
     
  2. Two of my friends went through that shit, and they got put in rehab. My boy got caught by his mom blowing her xanex, and he got kicked out of the house. But, that was a few months ago. His mother recently bought him a PS3 for christmas, so things will most likely blow over for you. Its always a big deal when it first happens, but eventually your parents learn to trust you again. Hope that helps.
     
  3. ya dude I feel ya...about a year and a half ago my dad had some hydrocodones 5mg ones...I took one or two everyday...but I found them when he no longer needed them...I feel kinda bad about it...but he never knew/asked about it...

    I only took them on the weekdays bc I was attending school at the time...and it helped with my anxiety...and helped me do my work without being worried about who's doing what and shit like that...plus it made me a bit more sociable..which I LOVED bc i'm a shy guy and all
     
  4. dont feel bad man, everyones stolen from their parents before. its sort of a get back at mom and dad type thing, but it always surfaces at the worst time, cause parents nearly always catch you, and they nearly always wait to tell you youve been cought til it works out best for them (parents can be selfish too)

    but either way, what you did was wrong. if you are addicted to opiates, you probnably should stop using them period, unless you are really far into addiction, in which case you should seek help. if you feel you can stop, or you want to still use pain killers in a more restricted fashion, ask around and im sure you can find them, probably for so cheap, it wouldnt even be worth it:

    vicodin 5mg - $1-$3 each
    oxycontin 80mg - $40-$60 each
    percocet - $2-$4 each

    there are some prices for you.

    also, if you want an alternative, you can try xanax. its not a pain killer, can be found very cheaply, and offers a nice "buzz" for a cheap price, but again, can be addictive. i suggest this since i personally find that if i feel the need to abuse prescription drugs (which i often feel the need to do) then i will switch between opiates and benzos so that there is not as much risk of becoming dependent.

    good luck, and maybe try appologizing to your dad when the time is right. obviously, the damage is done, but there is really nothing you can do at this point other than to lay low, and not abuse his trust again. if smoking weed is something that could potentially get you into more trouble with him, keep that on the DL.
     
  5. xanax is a hell of a pill, ive been through several binges on that shit, just fucked up for days, and they are addictive as fuck but damn do i love those thngs
     
  6. Like pills or loathe them- stealing from the rents is a bit fucked up. Never mind:

    1- Everyone fucks up from time to time.
    2- What's done is done.
    3- "If the path is set in stone- use a sledge hammer."

    Bottom line- you fucked up. You're sorry. I know you feel bad but there's NO WAY you can change what you did. Just remember that, with most things in life, you can take control, turn things around and make most things right again. Learn from it and move on.

    Chin up, squire.
     
  7. Yeah i've stolen pain killers from my parents i definitively dont do it anymore because now that i have to use them and have gotten a few stolen from me it's sucks when you really need em, and now i cant get more till monday cause the doc is out and i only have 3 pills left. so i will never do that again, i even talked to her and told her i took them in the past, when she first asked me awhile ago when she had some go missing and i told her i didnt take them, cause i only took a few loris and there was an oxy 20mg missing too that i didnt take.
     
  8. my dad recently had surgury, he had 2 consecutive bottles of 60 oxycodones, and i took about 20 from each one.....

    he has not said anything about it, but i know that he knows..... kind of makes me feel ashamed....
     
  9. I've thought about taking oxycodones from my dad and i felt so guilty when i was about to do it.

    I just want a reliable source for xannies and painkillers without having to take em.
     
  10. We've all (most) been there.

    I stole some Perc's from my Mom once. She never noticed.

    My grandfather noticed when I took some, when I was like 15.
    I didn't feel bad then because I was tweaking. But now I do.
     
  11. yea dude im mad close with my dad and making him happy will be an amazing feeling.. drop the pill thrill bro... ur smarter then that
     
  12. Shit tim....rare to hear you say somethin like this man. I honestly thought it was all good with your dad and thought he didnt really care but apparently not. Ireally didnt think you were addicted to painkillers but if you are, I'm glad you can admit

    I've never seen your dad very emotional either man, cant believe he was crying. In the 10 years Ive known him hes always been so laid back about you doing shit.

    very mature of you to come out and admit it man. props for that.

    Ill be in Northboro tomorow man so Ill give you a call if you dont have school and you can explain all this to me in person since its very surprising
     
  13. Yo man Ive been there. My uncle used to get a bottle of 250 pills of 5 mg oxycodone every 3 or 4 months. And damn, when theres that many, you can take a lot without anyone noticing. Then i ended up becoming addicted to oxy and eventually drained all of his shit. He found out but never said anything to me.

    Definitly not worth it but at the same time I was fucking HAPPY as shit and in pure bliss for around 6 months when I used nonstop. Being addicted to a substance taught me some of the greatest lessons of my life. If yours is as serious as my addiction was, then you know exactly how your whole "logic" changes just so you can always convince yourself to use.

    And how did I cut my addiction? When his bottles ran out I didnt go out and look for more. It was fucking rough. :)
     

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