Generalized fears of consequences

So I am a medical marijuana patient in one of the north eastern states where cultivation is not allowed. I have purchased everything I need to cultivate 1-2 marijuana plants in my conominium. Now I know it is risky to grow in a rented area and to make matters worse, I received my seeds with a rip in the packaging where anyone could have seen what was inside. To make matters ever worse the package was delivered to the wrong unit. somebody opened my mail and if they were to see that there were seeds in there it wouldn't be evidence because they illegally searched my mail right? Anyways I'm wondering if I should just give up on growing for now. It is sad because I do have a debilitating illness that I suffer from daily and I was prescribed medical marijuana for a reason. The problem is, it's absurdly expensive in my state and the dispensary is far from my house making it hard to obtain. I'm nervous that somebody knows that I plan to grow and will tip off somebody. My card allows me to have up to 2.5 ounces on me at a time but I know cultivation is a different story. I'm pursuing a career in software engineering and I don't want to ruin my life but I can say with confidence that marijuana has aided me in the combatance of the symptoms I suffer from on a daily basis. It pains me to know that I have already invested a great deal of money and time into learning about cultivation and I do not want to have forfeit my plans. I'm just looking for any advice on the situation.

 

I've been very careful about being seen carrying equipment and what. Marijuana is decriminalized but cultivating is not as far as I know. It just sucks that my package was opened illegally and it could have been a number of people who opened it. I know it wasn't customs because the package arrived safely, it could have either been my doorman who could be nosy at times or the woman who received the package "by accident." I don't understand how they could have sent it to the wrong appartment because my name and address is on there. (Which makes me even more anxious.) It's a real shitty situation but as of right now it seems like I'm going to be lugging this shit into storage and continuing to be ripped off by the state for what I consider medicine.

 

Yeah I do have a medical card and it is still illegal to cultivate(priced at dispensary are 400-500$ an oz which is absurd.) My concern is getting arrested.