So this is just me venting. Because I can't tell anyone my problems.. I feel I dont want the sympathy anymore, and mainly... I keep to myself . I am a 21 y/o female who did not go back to college, could have been graduating this year. I think my bulimia was at its worst when I just gave up on school. ( 2 yrs ago). My past sexual relationships/failed "relations" have made my anxiety/depression even worse. Im so very insecure. My mentality is so fucked up . I feel I cant go back to school or get a job that I enjoy unless I fix myself physically first Ex) I want a nosejob so I can actually look and feel my age. I want to stop this vicious eating disorder so I can maintain a healthy weight and quit being skinny one day and then gaining it back.. I ....need...help. And marijuana is not always the solution.