See... my problem with Adderall is I love it too much. I self-medicate myself with it and it does sooo much for me that not feeling that way all the time, otherwise known as feeling "normal", I feel worse than I normally would knowing I could be feeling "normal". At least I realized that now and not down the road; saved me a lot of probable troubles in the future. Classic case of dependency occurring and I nipped it in the bud (time for a toke) right from the start.