Fucked up thinking

Discussion in 'Real Life Stories' started by DrOpEnEr, May 25, 2010.

  1. So to start this off I'll give you all a little background info. I'm 20yrs old, I go to college, I live with the 'rents, and I don't have a job. As far as school is concerned I'm doing alright and as for my social life it's fine too. I smoke almost daily with my friends and have a good time most of the time. For a while now I have been having really fucked up thoughts and it's starting to cloud my state of being. I'm a spiritual man and have a shaman teacher who teaches me the "ways of life" I guess you can say. I went from depressed to feeling ecstatic and thankful to wake up every morning. That has begun to fade and I can't help but think that we're here for nothing special. The first cell ever created didn't have to absolutely be made. What the fuck are we? Was god so bored that created it all for his amusement? Does anything really fucking matter at all? I wonder, if this world is made up of 2 sides which are: good and evil. Does it matter which side you're on? I mean one needs the other to exist...which one's bad? and evil=Live backwards. I have no true reason to think like this...my family is great, friends are too, girls come easy, financially ok, and I'm not failing at life. I just can't stop thinking that we're useless. I'm not suicidal although I wouldn't mind dying even though I know what would happen if I did and again it would be pointless to have done so. I don't know what the fuck to do anymore. I used to wish I could wake up and be 30 years old so that I could skip all this bullshit and wake up married, settled, and with kids...but I realized that just because your age changes and your body ages it doesn't mean your mind grows older. I don't know how the fuck to change my perspective on life anymore. I don't want to live anymore but suicide is not an option. This world and its narrow-minded people are pathetic. I want to leave so bad. Will I ever get out of this state of mind?!

    Just venting, thanks for reading.
  2. Your just coming to grips with our reality.

    We are nothing more than mammals. We have no larger purpose. (imagine the purpose of a squirrels life. It is equivelent to our own.)

    In a large scale (universal) we mean nothing and there are almost certainly other civilizations that are even more advanced and better structured then ours.

    The only thing to do is to enjoy life and be happy.

    You've clearly got your life together, so just enjoy it and seize the moments.

    Well thats my perspective anyway.
  3. ^^^^ couldnt of said it better myself
  4. You'll never find out the meaning of life, so decide what you think it is and enjoy your life :smoke:
  5. i recently came to grips with the lack of purpose to life. its weird to know that our only purpose is to perpetuate the species and maintain the balance of life. i guess whats helping me level with it is the face that if we dont have a purpose we can do whatever makes us happy with no guilt.
  6. It's easy to say that we have no purpose besides procreating and continuing the species, but I think that's a cop out. As human beings we have a responsibility to advance our species.

    In the grand scheme of things, humanity is the most important thing a human can concern himself with. Think, build, talk, imagine, create! Our job is to be the greatest species this galaxy has ever seen or die trying!


    I'm gonna smoke a bowl for humanity.
  7. Well usually when I have those kinda thoughts im in a idgaf mood where I really just don't give a shit about anything or im really depressed, BUTTTTT, you said you weren't depressed or anything and had a great life, so I'm not really sure.

    But just in case you're secretly depressed and don't know you:
    You are the fucking man, and you kick 7 different kinds of ass.
  8. I'm a nihilist too so I share your view pretty much. If you really think about it, and I mean REALLY think about your "existence" there's no possible way it can be.

    For example: do something right now, like walk around or get out of your chair. Then think about what you just did. Did you really just get up/walk around? Then think about walking, what exactly is walking?

    When I, at least, think about these things I realize that none of them can really exist, and the "life" we're living is really just an illusion somehow. The only persuasion to try and excel at school or your job or whatever is that you have the illusion of emotions too. Some say this is depressing, but I think of it as realistic and unavoidable.
  9. hey when you die, nothing happens!
  10. girls come easy? shit if i was you, i wouldn't be complaining lol, i'd be happy right there.
  11. #11 Jihuji, May 26, 2010
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    Evil is bad. Good is good.
    "You can be good for the mere sake of goodness: you cannot be bad for the mere sake of badness." - C.S. Lewis

    I almost got really depressed at one point because I thought that the world had no meaning, and now I realize that it's a good thing if the world has no meaning, because that means we can do whatever the fuck we want and it doesn't really matter. I don't believe in God, but I know Christianity very well, and if you do believe in the Christian God, you should believe that the purpose of our lives is to love others unconditionally, and if we do so, we will be rewarded with a glorious afterlife.

  12. Yea bro, this shit hit me hard also. One other thing that tears me up is not being able to choose a side. I can't rationalize on whether or not there is a God. I fear I won't find the answer.
  13. See, I've come to realize that it is beyond us as human beings to be able to ever know for sure whether or not there is a God until we die, so I've just accepted this unfortunate truth and call myself an agnostic. I really doubt that there is a God though, to be honest.
  14. I would say that the existence of a human being is not the same as any other mammal. Our self awareness, sense of identity, and capacity for creativity and intelligent thought differentiate us greatly in a basic way from other animals.

    I dont think we should ever underestimate the true ramifications of man being able to question the very nature of his existence and the existence of the universe.
  15. You are one of life's great quest's, the quest for happiness. Find a way you can live your life and be as happy as possible, only you can figure out what works for you.

    Yes, there is no perceivable awesome reason for existence, but you may as well make the most of what you are given.
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  17. man, everyone thinks like that. The only thing you can do is live each as best you can. maybe read that thread called "the only thing that matters is being happy". that is your purpose right there lol:hello:
  18. you should seriously consider taking a t-break for a little bit. this happened to me and i just stopped smoking for a few days and i was fine
  19. It's actually quite amusing once you realize that there is no reason to our existence, unless you apply reason - with a logical attitude. Life really is what you make it; it's all a game.
  20. #20 Jihuji, Jun 1, 2010
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    It's funny how people believe that our lives have more meaning and more of a purpose than the life of the rest of the animals on this planet, simply because we're more intelligent than they are.

    In the words of Bill Hicks, one of the greatest comedians to ever live, "The world is like a ride in an amusement park. And when you choose to go on it, you think it's real because that's how powerful our minds are. And the ride goes up and down and round and round. It has thrills and chills and it's very brightly coloured and it's very loud and it's fun, for a while. Some people have been on the ride for a long time and they begin to question, is this real, or is this just a ride? And other people have remembered, and they come back to us, they say, 'Hey - don't worry, don't be afraid, ever, because, this is just a ride.' And we kill those people."

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