well, not really. I just feel like complete shit and i needed to make a striking title. Seriously, i feel like such shit right now and i hope to find myself out of the woods soon. I feel like crying I feel like dying. Basically, my girl left me and that really fucking bites because i was so emotionally invested in her. The past 2 weeks where things between us were strange, ive felt that ive been going fucking crazy. Now that it has come to a conclusion i am some what relieved now that the doubt has been removed (though confirmed). But man I LOVED THAT GIRL. But i suppose it is my fault as i pretty much knew this was going to happen. I just wish i hadnt fallen for this girl, but how could i not? she was the sweetest most prettiest girl i knew and to know that i will no longer have her to hold, and thinking about it, is causing me to feel like complete shit. Not to fucking mention that i just realized that i may have lost my wallet containing 180 dollars, Hopefully i left it at work. Oh and FUCK i have an assignment due tomorrow, which i have not done. Man fuck life Perhaps i should go on a tbreak to alleviate my depression. Jesus fuck, i never thought id say that im depressed. but i fucking am. i fuckigbn am!!!!
dude, some of the best advice anyone every told me was that.... All that stuff that’s stressing you out — it won’t matter in 5 years, let alone 15. When things are happening to you right now, they mean all the world. I had deadlines and projects and people breathing down my neck, and my stress levels went through the roof. I don’t regret the hard work but I think I would have been less stressed if I could have just realized that it wouldn’t matter a single bit just a few years down the road. Perspective is a good thing to learn.
I know how you feel. I've had alot of moments myself lately. It's a hard thing to admit to yourself, let alone others. Someting that stops me is knowing if i end it i will never write or love again. Find something you love and hone in on it when you have to. Just focus until you realize it's going to be ok
Mae gave a good piece of advice. Some of the best advice I got involving women is that: Though right now, you may see her as the most perfect person in the world, but realize that if broke it off with you (don't blame yourself), or didn't feel for you in the same way, that it wasn't meant to be. When it comes to a man and a woman (or man/man, woman/woman, whatever makes you happy) it's pretty much like a web. Those that you connect with more, and are more attracted to, the web is tighter. Realize that with what just happened to you, the web wasn't as tight as it could be, because you weren't right for each other in the end. Take a step back, and look at the relationship, and find out the different things that made you so attracted to her (whether it be weight, hair, sense of humor, intelligence, etc.) and maybe write them down, so you don't forget them. Then, take a look at what may have been missing, whatever just wasn't there for you when it came to her. Finally, take this as a learning experience. When you got into the relationship you weren't as knowledgable about what kind of girl is right for you as you are now. Realize you're one step closer to finding the perfect person for you. Let the pain pass, and keep your chin high man. And when it comes to suicidal thoughts, realize that what's after this life may not be better than what you have going on now. There may be nothing after this, no one knows. So try to stay positive, and live happy.
Ya, I was feeling the same some time ago. Realizing that I didnt do anything with my life made me feel totaly worthless. But why kill yourself if you gonna die anyway? I always get over that shit... Not that Im very happy now... but its better than being dead anyway
You can't just say "Feeling Suicidal" and then say "not really". By typing that, it says you've thought about it, which is something more serious than you think. See a therapist, they can really help if you get a good one.
Ah, believe me i know what you mean by that. Its not that im FEELING suicidal; its just that at the moment the wound is fresh and it really hurts! Its as if being dead would relieve my pangs, which in the end would do more than that. Besides ive lost friends and i would never want to put them into the state of depression that one would feel from that. Anyways, I had this english assignment that i had to do. Basically its supposed to be an essay question about someone you knew, then having them change on you, and what your feelings were about that. Hopefully i wont get deducted any marks because it ends up being about me......... but yeah here it is peeps tell me whwat you think, BTW this is first draft. (HAHA AS IF. ITS FUCKING DUE TOMORROW!!) "i can recall a time in my life, where the presence of a certain female would cause me to become weak in the knees and cause my voice to crack. I adored this person and felt as if my world would implode if i were to lose her or if she were to leave me. The glint in her eyes and the adoration that i had for her was not topable; i believe i was in love. Or perhaps it was infatuation. I wasnt able to tell at the time, but what i felt was genuine. Unfortunately, she did end up leaving me. I was devastated. But fortunately my world still stood intact. A little shaken up, but i reassured myself that the heartbreak would subside over time. I come to ponder what went wrong in the relationship, and i think i've come to blame myself for this. i had gotten too comfortable in this relationship, and started speaking thoughtlessly. Little did i know that different thoughts and feelings would start occuring due to my audacity. I was under the illusion that what i had would be waiting for me at the end of the day with open arms, unconditionally. I was wrong to assume this, and it is a lesson that that is not to be forgotten by me. Though, I do not believe that i am entirely to blame. My negativity was responded to with negativitiy, which opened my eyes a little bit causing me to think maybe things werent as peachy as i had thought and hoped for. I was able to see a different side that i was obvlious to. The side that was rude, with a bit of ignorance attached. I had always been open to any sort of conversation, but she was not. I had repeatedly pleaded with her to open up to me, but i was met with an cold shoulder and stare. I learned that regardless of how much you think you know a person, they can change before even realize it. I have tried to apply this to every day situations with people that i meet But i cant help but give people the benefit of the doubt" guys heres to brighter days!!
oh and btw guys thanks for all the positive advice. It really helps to know that other people are out there, because sometimes its as if no one is. Oh and BTW if you noticed, in my 'essay' it speak in past tense. It just happened last night but it just felt nice to write about it (not to mention that the feelings are fresh) so i just changed the timeline hehe