The last few days I've felt absolutely overwhelmed. I think I'm too hard on myself. I told myself that all I'm going to do for the next 3 months is constantly work out/eat healthy and change the things about my body that make me insecure and self conscious. Hope this isn't tmi but now I notice I can't even get fully hard erections. I feel like porn has fucked that up. I mainly have health anxiety(hypochondria) so I worry that my weak erections mean I have a bad heart or low testosterone. All this constant worrying eventually builds up and the next thing I know I feel sick and start having panic attacks. When I get high I feel like all of these things hit me at once and overwhelm the fuck out of me. I don't have shit for friends and I don't feel comfortable talking about these things to my parents who live across the county. I'm pretty much completely alone I'm an apartment for the next 3-4 months in a town where there isn't shit to do. I don't know guys. Fuck.