The last few days I've felt absolutely overwhelmed. I think I'm too hard on myself. I told myself that all I'm going to do for the next 3 months is constantly work out/eat healthy and change the things about my body that make me insecure and self conscious. Hope this isn't tmi but now I notice I can't even get fully hard erections. I feel like porn has fucked that up. I mainly have health anxiety(hypochondria) so I worry that my weak erections mean I have a bad heart or low testosterone. All this constant worrying eventually builds up and the next thing I know I feel sick and start having panic attacks. When I get high I feel like all of these things hit me at once and overwhelm the fuck out of me. I don't have shit for friends and I don't feel comfortable talking about these things to my parents who live across the county. I'm pretty much completely alone I'm an apartment for the next 3-4 months in a town where there isn't shit to do. I don't know guys. Fuck.
What do you do while smoking usually? Have you ever tried experiencing something new, such as learning an instrument or tried a new food while high? Like having a set task of something you'd like to do high, it gives you something to focus on and work towards, which I find makes my lone seshes like little missions almost. I try to make it interesting when smoking alone, because I know what it's like to be alone every day just smoking the day away, not a fun place really. Sitting around doing nothing leads to you picking away in your own mind and starts to deteriorate you. Make it new and interesting not just a routine spice things up ya know, cannabis should be a tool used to enhance experiences in life, not constant use for the sake of it with no gain. All about advancement in life man, it's what we do. Chin up, homie.
I feel you. But you'll be alright man you should just say fuck it because even if you live healthy, we all die one day so why constantly worry about your health. Worrying about tomorrows troubles takes away today's happiness Sent from my MB886 using Grasscity Forum mobile app
Man even if you get soft from porn you wont from a chick. Different stimulations. Dont be so hard on yourself. Get it? Hard on? Hahaha... Sent from my SGH-I337M using Grasscity Forum mobile app