so i have a low self esteem and have had it most of my life. i think it might be because of an incident in 3rd grade where my first girlfriend and i were forced to kiss and i froze up and being young dumb people that led to her calling me a name and breaking up with me because of this incident i guess. since then i havent done anything with a girl. There have been girls that wanted to be with me and go out and shit but i cant get past my fear of sucking at kissing. any advice?