Okay, so about a year ago I had an experience from weed that I had never had before, and have never had since then. I smoke semi-frequently (a few times a week) but at the time, I had just come off of a two month long tolerance break. My friend and I got a large amount of weed to celebrate the end of my long T-break. We kept taking bong rip after bong rip, getting more and more stoned, and then all of the sudden, *something* happened. I was watching my friend hit the bong, and suddenly my mind skipped over a second or two. The image in vision had switched from him hitting the bong to him extending it to me. (As if two seconds had just been deleted from my existence) For a brief moment, I didn't know anything, except for what was happening. Within a half a second, I was able to recall who he was, who I was, what we were doing, etc. and then I felt this overwhelming feeling of connectedness to everyone who had ever taken a puff of the green goodness. It was almost psycadelic. It has been well over a year since I had this experience, and I haven't had any other like it since then, or prior to it. No matter how stoned I get, my brain just doesn't do what it did on that day. I've been trying to piece together what happened in my mind, but the more distant I get from the time it occured, the more fuzzy the memory becomes
The overall experience was a very positive and powerful experience. Religiously speaking, I felt like I was "born again" from that moment. For a brief second, it was like my very first moment ever existing. No memories for a songle moment. And within a second, it all came back to me. I've been trying to figure this out for over a year. It was the most spiritual experience I had ever had on any drug. I yearn to experience that at least one more time in my life.
Think of that voice in your mind that narrates your life. When you judge something or ponder a choice or even think about what you're about to do. Have you ever replayed a difficult or glorious memory in your head? Or perhaps when you're about to meet someone you play out a conversation in your mind? I give these examples because I'm not sure who else does these things, but I think you might recognize at least one of them. It is that voice in your mind that I just want to point out to you. The voice is a product of your mind, your ego, and it isn't really a bad thing, except we identify with it. We think the voice is "me" but really "you" are what is listening to the voice. It isn't just the voice, all thoughts, feelings, ideas, memories, everything that arises in your mind is a part of you, but it alone is not "you." You are just the conscious awareness, you are what is experiencing all of these things. When you truly realize this it's like waking up into the world for the first time. Sometimes though you can catch a glimpse of this experience without understanding it. Extreme beauty, the birth of your child, music that touches your emotions, drugs, a number of things can temporarily silence the ego, allowing you to taste the experience of pure self. Often the first time that you have this experience it is like a flood of overwhelming joy, love, connectedness, forgiveness or peace. (Or if you know it, but haven't "been there" in a while) So... How do you get back there? It is actually quite simple, but because it is so simple it's easy to overlook. The present. This moment. Right here, right now. By losing everything temporarily and only being aware of what was happening for that brief second you silenced your ego. The ego operates in the past and in the future, because it cannot exist in the present. Later today I will do this, tomorrow I will do this, omg can't believe this happened yesterday. Blah blah blah blah blah. If you will notice though, everything that has happened to you or will ever happen to you happened in the form of the present moment. Tomorrow never really comes, because when it does we call it today. If you say, "I'll be happy when X happens tomorrow" you have robbed yourself of the opportunity to be fulfilled today. Getting back to that place works in much the same way. You can't think "someday I'll get back there" because you've then placed it out of reach. That place you want to get to, is only available in the present moment. Right here, right now. Each instance of the present, flowing at you constantly. Focus on your breathing, realize that everything that you need you have right now in this moment. Anything that is going on right now, accept it. Realize that this is your life and you are here today. Each second is precious because it will never be again. Don't cling to the moments as they pass, and do not wish for the future. Be here now. I hope my words have helped. If you think what I've said was at all relevant I suggest you pick up Eckhart Tolle's book "The Power of Now" as it really helped me. Sent from my iPhone using Grasscity Forum
Sounds like you were fully experiencing what was happening at that very moment. A brief glimpse of enlightenment. Satori. whatever you want to call it. labels aren't anything compared to its experience.
I love reading these threads. A lot are the same. *does drug knowing its a drug* *goes on hallucinogenic trip* *actually believes God was involved despite knowing that you are on drugs* Sent from my LG-E739 using Grasscity Forum mobile app