I think i might be having a drinking problem, if i had money i'd drink everyday...and when i drink, my only goal is getting as fucked up as possible, and most of the time end up fighting with my dad or his wife, i think they want to send me back home after what happened yesterday, i called my older sister because it was her bd, and she was a bitch to me (we havent really talked in over 2 years) so then i called my mom and started yelling a lot of shit about my sister and my dad and his wife, they were obviously listening, and that was my idea... after that i see my dad, his wife and my little sister getting out of the house and hopping in their car (at 11:30 pm?) and just leave, so i call my dad and tell him "what? your husband (lol) is being a bitch?" and he tells me "no, im going to the doctor"...thats when i was like oh shit, and hung up. When i saw them leave he had like this worrying look, i thought they were going to the airport to get me a ticket back home or something, but apparently my dad had high tension, thats when i started to worry. They came back and he was alright i guess, he doesnt like to explain shit to me, ever. I dont want to leave here because im about to start college, and i know if i go back home im never going to study and only drink and smoke and other unmentionable things... And most of the time when im drunk im really chill and just listening to music until something external happens that makes me go crazy, like my dad telling me why am i drinking, it pisses me the fuck off. I think i should get a job as soon as i start college and just move out, goin be hard but i been working and living b my own since age 15 anyways, and when im drunk i start remembering everything this people have made be go through and thats when shit hits the fan. Also i should of start college years ago, but when i was on the streets i stopped studying because i had other things to worry about like finding a place to stay every night and eating 3 times a day, im not the usual middleschool-highschool-college perfect life kid, i wish i was... Tl;Dr : i stole a van and kidnapped 16 people and made a human centipide.
It sounds like drinking triggers more negative emotions for you than positive. Have you tried smoking more to relieve the anxiety? Try smoking a joint or bowl with one beer and see how you feel. I'd imagine you want to escape the bad memories, and drinking only seems to strengthen them, trapping you in a paradox.
stop while you're ahead addiction is nothing to mess around with. the longer you let it go on the worse it will get, i've been there not with alcohol but other shit and it isn't fun get help or stop
yeah I'd stop drinking. It destroyed my family completely. Honestly, I don't drink after watching my family be ripped apart from my alcoholic mother. I've been drunk twice in my 20 years, and I've smoked weed over 9000. What's left of my family is still intact
Love the Tl;DR btw. Now for the drinking the problem... Best advice? BlazinEls gave it. I know a lot of alcoholics, and it never ends well. My mother showed me that with the bullshit she pulled when she was drinking. Either that, or work out the emotions that you're feeling with your family man, when you're sober of course. It seems there's a lot of tension when you're around them and I just hope that you can work through that.
Havent been able to smoke in a month now, the insomnia is back, all i do at nights is think about my dead friends (8 of my best friends have been killed in less than a year time) or my dead relatives, and what i could of done to save them (some were killed infront of me)...i want this thoughts to stop but theres no way i think. As soon as i get a job im buying only weed tho, but i have to wait until college starts so i can find a part time job that will work with my college schedule. I start in 3 days, i hope i can make it without being sent back. Its not that i NEED to drink, but when i have money its the cheapest way i can think of of not being sober, i dont like the sober life. Thanks for the answers guys.
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Stop bitching and fucking stop drinking you obviously can't handle it. It's really not that hard to see, so correct your behavior and stop crying like a nancy.
You have no idea, on working days i only see them after 5 or 6 PM, but on weekends they are gone before i even wake up and they come back late at night, and when we are all in one place at the same time, its just plain weird, all i say to m dads wife is "hey" when she arrives, barely talk to my dad, and my sister shes cool as shit but i know her mom is feeding her with negative things about me, i want to live for the sake of all of us, its not fair that they feel they cant be in their own house just because im here. but my dad wont pay me a rent house and thats fine, i havent even asked him, i know all hes going to pay is college and its pretty much because he feels he owes me at least that. my plan for now is, start college, find job, get money, move the fuck out, and start living.
im not bitching about shit, i acknowledge my mistakes and im not really hurt of what happened in the past, because being by my own really taught me that we are all alone in the world, and made me grow the fuck up, i was living in a dream life, and finally woke up. im not crying either, i think you just got all that shit wrong.
When you do move out, and if you feel it's a safe thing to do, ask them if you could talk to them about what you've done in the past and see how you could make it better. It sucks when you ask that, because sometimes it's perceived wrongs or something you made a mistake on. It may be that your dad's wife is poisoning the well. I dunno man. Sometimes having a little distance between you and your family does wonder for the relationship.
Best of luck to you man! I had an alcoholic uncle, and it doesn't seem like you're on that path. If you want to forget, try not getting excessively drunk, moderate it and see how you feel.
I use to drink alot. Then I got alcohol poisoning, now the thought of drinking sends chills down my body. I'll have a few beers sometimes but that is IT. I'm kind of glad I got alcohol poisoning, I'd probably be dead now if I didn't P.S. Fuck Evan Williams. God damn.
This thread makes me realize why you're such a misogynistic, chauvinist, a* hole. Get off the liquor, Mr. Lahey, it's warping your brains.
Look everyone posting here to put this dude down, give him a break. Yeah his college is getting paid for, yeah he's living at home, and yeah he should stop drinking like he has been, but just because he's living economically easy doesn't mean he lives in a healthy emotional environment. So if you don't have something that will help him out or can relate to him give the guy a break. He doesn't need people to give him unnecessary bullshit and nobody else does either.