(I asked this before in a different forum and got like no responses, so here we go lol.) Honestly this isn't really something I ponder much anymore, but last year whenever I would get high on edibles I would sometimes have this train of thought... What even IS sex? Isn't it so strange how we get THAT close as human beings?? Also, what if me questioning that means I have huge intimacy issues and maybe I'm lowkey better off being a lone wolf forever, what if THAT'S truly me at my happiest? It's worth noting that when I was little, I always had this super strong belief that sex of any kind was wrong and I stood by that a lot. It could be that when I get high, sometimes I revert back to a childlike opinion / feeling toward broad concepts like sex and intimacy.
Pamela Handerson is around when I'm sober, when i'm high idgaf about looking for a root or the usual routine. Too much drama.
Idk I think it all depends on the individual and each person's experience with sex. Weed always opens my mind and makes things flesh out more, and it's usually something I don't normally want to look at too deeply. But when I am high I am not as afraid to dive in and look at the deep shit whatever it may be lol. So if you are questioning yourself about sex while you're high and coming up with things like intimacy issues and memories about thinking sex was wrong at some point in your life, could be you are uncovering some issues you may not have known you had before regarding sex. It's a good thing I think, bc it's giving you an opportunity to figure out what sex means to you as well as whatever other stuff comes up while you're high. Weed works in mysterious ways I guess, in different ways for all of us. It's wonderful to make love while high though!!! Good luck with everything!!!
Lol, thanks for actually giving a thoughtful answer! Your first paragraph especially resonated a ton with me. I can't count the number of times some big-ish problem happened to be going in on my life, only for me to totally re-analyze the situation while high and like mentally sift through all the bs and cut right to the very essence of the problem. It's honestly such a cathartic feeling--it truly helps you understand your biggest/deepest desires, problems, fears, etc in life, especially when the same ones come up repeatedly in different situations. And then regarding the whole sex thing. Like I said, it's not a huge issue for me, I've just noticed that I don't reallyyyyy gravitate toward thinking about sex while high, they just seem almost weirdly incompatible to me? Almost like weed is such a visceral, mental, spiritual thing while sex feels very bodily and immediate, just two extremely different sensations to me. Both great, but in almost opposite ways. But to get at the heart of your question... I think that sometimes my favorite moments while high are when I feel super duper connected to my past, therefore giving me more inspiration for the present & future. And like I said, even though I'm not an un-sexual being by any means, I definitely had a weird relationship with sex while growing up (religious convictions being a big part of it, and some fear of intimacy) and so I think that weed definitely makes me re-discover some of those younger ways of thinking, it almost feels pure & innocent in a way. And I'm sort of just processing this right now, but maybe this sheds some light on a fear of growing up that I still have even after all these years. Maybe sex STILL feels like a grown-up thing to me and deep down inside I still feel like a kid at heart. Hmmmm.
No GF right now so no sex for me... weed makes my mind relax, I think of things I've forgotten years ago, people, events, places...
