[Not sure if this is the right section..] I use to LOVE smoking, I loved everything about it, except sometimes the taste, and when my mouth went numb. I use to smoke every single day for months on end with no break. I remember I loved sitting with my friends wishing that kool-aid would come out of the sky, and stupid bs like that. Well recently I had to stop smoking, it got so bad. I felt like I wasn't myself, like I was seeing out of my eyes but I was in somebody else's body, I'd get so extremely antsy and my anxiety levels would spike up, nothing can change it. I'd be stuck in that mood the whole time until I wasn't high anymore. I'm literally afraid to smoke, I think it might've started when I tried triple c's and had a encounter with the devil lol.. He told me I was dead, so I'm not sure if because it was such a traumatic experience(to me) that it just lingers in the back of my mind and when I smoke i guess I kind of remember it? What do you think?