Depression

After highschool you find out who your real friends are. Some will move on with their lives, others will still talk to you. It's a fact of life, I know it's depressing, all of my friends pretty much abandoned me after highschool I can count all my friends on one hand, and that's okay with me because I know they're real friends and that's what counts.

So just wait it out a while and things will get better you'll adjust.

 

Sounds like you're having a rough go of it bro. Maybe it would help to remember that when doors close in our lives like friends moving away or moving on others open. Like you said "I can't believe how fast time goes by," time's moving by very quickly so it's best to think about the future as an endless array of possibilities. You'll make new friends and your parents will grow old but that's perfectly okay. There's a harmony and flow to life that carries us in the right direction so long as we don't fight it. This may not be a comforting thought but change isn't always easy to accept. Life is more even than that because it consists of so many moments past and present.

With any luck you have your whole life ahead of you, cherish every second equally while always looking forward.

"It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar and seemingly secure, to embrace the new. But there is no real security in what is no longer meaningful. There is more security in the adventurous and exciting, for in movement there is life, and in change there is power."

<O</O~Alan Cohen~

<O</OStay green.

 

They say that perceptually speaking, you've lived half your life by the time you are eighteen. Now THAT'S depressing! hahah!

It seems to me like the perfect time in your life for a pilgrimage. Maybe India, or Tibet, or something. If you live in the USA, take a road trip across the states, or something like that, go out and experience some real life, on your own, without mummy and daddy and your pals to hold your hand. Fuck lots of women, hitch-hike, dive off a bridge, take some risks, shake your tree and have some fun.

Get into the moment and enjoy life, because today could be your last, really, and then you'd be up there (or wherever) going "Aww fuck! I wish I'd shagged more women", or whatever else is in your heart to do.

In other words, if you have dreams, go chase them. If not, go find them.

-mu

ps. if you think about it, and most don't, "enjoy" is actually a contraction, two words.

 

there's always more to be had in life.

if we spend our time pining for the past we'll miss the future as it comes at full speed into the present and before you know it, bam! its more stuff to pine over in the past, because you missed it for want of what was, not what could be and what is.

getting better all the time.

i value the friends i made after school, at college, via weed and so on more than i value my long standing friends from school. don't get me wrong, i'm one of those lucky people to retain some friends from school... y'know, the type you could not see for half a decade or more, see em again and it's just like old times (except hopefully all parties concerned would have grown and changed a good bit), and i value these friendships loads, but these friendships themselves are added to in richness by my experiences of having gone away, met more people, discovered what kind of people i gravitate towards, who i am, and all the things i got from those passing friendships, some of them too, now have that same lasting quality as the one's from school, and i'm sure this is to be a theme that shal re-occur again and again in life. look to the future, for it is bright, and we can make of it what we want to a great extent, the past is done, we can learn from where it has taken us, but we may as well allow it to be as if set in stone.

supposedly.

 

I had some trouble as i dropped out of highschool ( Not a good desicion at all!) seeing all my friends pass me by, going to college, etc. it really kicked me in the ass hard. yea, im 18 and have a good fulltime job, but at the same time looking back i wish id had just endured the bullshit.

yea i was depressed, infact i still am... but one of the most influential things in my life is MY depression.

I think about it daily, and it helps me get that much closer to a Ged, and a photoshop degree. or a photography degree, or a computer science degree (been building computers since i was able to hold a fulltime job to pay for them). I have many skills but they dont mean shit unless i have papers with education stamps on them.

How i hate school, oh how i hated highschool, how i hated how it made everyone the same. at the same time, i cherished the times i spent, the times i could actually get in trouble for smoking weed. yea i miss it, but its only 1 chapter in your life, you my friend are ready for chapter 2. Hope this helped bro, use your depression as inspiration to do good, or whatever you feel your purpose is.

 

Im having bouts of depression quite often now as well. I feel like my life is just a routine by doing the same thing everyday and theres no rewards. Lifes just getting plain boring. Sometimes I wish this joke of a life would just end.

 

build something on what makes you happy. if that's your foundations, of happyness, then so too will be your house, of happyness. build it from depression, then so too will be your house, of depression. what enlivens you with joy? these are the things to build on.

 

Man! That's lame! That's saying you'd prefer "more of the same, please", instead of the limitless possibility of your future. wtf?!? Let go, dude! Nothing is lost. It's in the past, and that's a great place to keep stuff, even leave stuff.

I've been there. I know that state when there is no reasoning with yourself, where death seems like the best and only option, but it never is, and you can go from on-your-arse, to top-of-the-world in a day, an instant, if you open yourself up to the possibility of it. It is possible. Do you want it?

PLEASE meditate on the phrase, while there's life, there's hope. Or anything else that makes you feel a little more positive about this life thing. Whatever works for you. Tried meditation?

gord420, with this, and something you said in another thread, I'm concerned. You want that boring shitty life to end? I agree, END IT! DO IT NOW! Just say "ENOUGH", and quit it. Get the fuck out.

Then do whatever it is you really want to do. Fuck your parents, fuck peer pressure, fuck everything but your own instinct, and just do it, follow your heart, as they say with good reason. Wanna be an actor, then go to hollywood and act. Wanna be a writer, then write. Wanna screw lots of fabulous chicks, then get out there and start saying "hi" to those beautiful creatures with the lumps on the front. Anything can happen after that.

Everything can be changed, everything is a choice. If your life sucks, then you are choosing that, every day. If you want something better, you'd better start choosing something better instead. If you want your life to be the same old shit, just keep doing the same old shit. If you want new things in your life, you need to do new things, think new things, believe new things. Your shit isn't working, so drop it like a stone and try something new.

Being wrong doesn't matter, failing doesn't matter, being misunderstood or scorned or ridiculed doesn't matter. What matters is that you are 100% in what you do. For Fuck's sake, don't sit on the fence in your own life, leap into it!

The rules of life are simple but sublime. If you live long enough, you can figure them out, then it's heaven on earth for you, and happy-happy-joy-joy time from then on, pretty much. You want that? Then go do it! Start now!

-mu

ps. The law of attraction can be manipulated. What do you attract?

 

hey man I just finished my first semester working towards my computer science degree and let me tell you from personel experience its all about writing software your ability to build computers will not help you at all exept youll be able to make yourself a machine to write code on. not saying that you cant do it im just saying dont expect to think its gonna be easy its an engineering degree, which in particular are difficult degrees to earn. Its lot of hard work but thats what I want I want to work my hardest to achieve the most i can so I have no regret about going into this field

 

when i think of shit like that and get all down i like to smoke another bowl so i can forget what i was thinking about, put some music and then im back to being all happy

 

I know what you mean man. Been going through the same shit the past few weeks. At first it was annoying, but then I smoked myself shitless one night and made sense of it all.

 

ye man im depresed to. it went from 16 years of happines and optimism to 2 years of shit and depresion and despair. some time i feel like i am lost and no one can help me... by i try to get by, just belive in god and take an action in ur life that could change it for the better.

 

Hey,

To everyone on this thread who is going through depression or a rough time in their lives. I have been suffering from severe depression, anxiety, social anxiety, and agrophobia (a anxiety of being in crowded places and or public places) since i was 12 years old... you know how long ago that is! (im 18 right now). I also have many other disorders including palmer hydrosis (where my hands sweat excessively and are ice cold all the time) and that just worses my anxiety. i try avoiding shaking other people hands thats how bad it is! i have had so many disorders come and go in my life and have gone thru so many meds that made me feel wierd and zombied out, and so much therapy.

And if theres one peice of advice i can give you.

Listen to the advice these fellow tokers have given you.

everything they have said especially -mu is true. I see you guys reply with things like "i understand what your saying but, blah blah lifes moving too fast, im so depressed blah blah etc"

If you mean what your saying. Then im gonna come out and say your life is probably at its worst right now isnt it? (once again, i understand how and what you guys are feeling remember)

If you life is at its worst. Stop thinking about it. Stop dreaming/daydreaming a better life and get out there. pick up the phone and call up some old friends or something.

Just get out there and do it, after all if your life is at its worse what do you have to lose right?

Ive gone thru periods in my highschools years as long as 6 months without any friends what so ever. I know its hard when you start losing friends and it seems like your growing fast.

so why waste anymore time?

I hope this helps you guys. If you ever need anyone to talk to im always here.. I love helping and talking to people. Its my thing.

 

quote- public places) since i was 12 years old... you know how long ago that is! (im 18 right now). I also have many other disorders including palmer hydrosis (where my hands sweat excessively and are ice cold all the time) and that just worses my anxiety. i try avoiding shaking other people hands thats how bad it is! i have had so many disorders come and go in my life and have gone thru so many meds that made me feel wierd and zombied out, and so much therapy.- quote

I don't want to keep harping on about this, but many people will be getting periods of depression by either gluten intolerance and/or dairy intolerance without even realising they have it. I had depression and the hands thing above all my life (and had periods of deeper, more widespread cold), which finally went once I packed in gluten. Worth looking at...

MelT

 

o wow, i would have never found that out.. literally... im gonna have to look into that right away. i gotta rep you for that thanks man