I never was shown love when i was growing up, had a disfunctional family, and never dated anyone because i was too shy and kind. I'm older now, 25, and i feel like a new person. I lost all my friends, i'm just alone and people want to hang out with me, but i just can't, i'm so lost in life, and the only people i really want to hang out with are the friends i've lost. There was this older woman who i fell hard for, just to find out she is a hoe. I gave her a ride and she talked about how she wants to bang this dude so much who treats her like shit (knowing full well how much i want to make love to her) We made out once for a moment, and she told me she isn't into kind boys like me later on. I cried so hard like a little bitch in front of my bros while we were smoking and drinking. I can't remember the last time i cried. I gave her a ride home and she was talking to her girlfriend on the phone how she cant get enough of this one dude. Man i felt like shit, i pretended everything was fine after riding her home, but then i messaged her "if nothing is gonna happen, might as well go our separate ways". I was like you could call me to chill or hang out, maybe go to the club or something. She said nothing yet. Even though she is a hoe, she was the only women i really felt like i wanted to be with. She had average looks and all, but i loved talking to her, and making her laugh whenever we had to chance to communicate. I guess im good looking enough to get numbers but i'm constantly told my personality isn't for them. I'm not over the top or anything, but i did treat women with great respect and kindness. Nowadays i just stopped caring and something felt like it died inside me, i don't feel committed to love anymore. I'm sending messages that only want to severe the bond. Even though she is a hoe, it hurts so much inside. I don't mind her lifestyle, but i don't like being used, or feeling like ive been used like a tool, but i also feel so empty inside and we havent even dated or fucked yet. I feel so pathetic.
How can you cry over a chick you wasn't even dating?? That's like me crying because I can't sleep with Amber Rose..
Man U come through the door with some heavy shit, 1st post!!! Do u even smoke weed? I can only imagine how you’d be actin if ya woulda fucked prob woulda purposed that night.
I make out with chicks all the time & don't cry lol I still don't understand it though if you wasn't officially together how can you get upset about it?
There’s lots of old whores online lookin to fuck cus their man is done with em. Ya need to take a look n find another just don’t get attached.
I'm sure it's hard but try not to let it get you down. I've been there. Before I got to know the man who is now my husband I had crushes on a younger guy and an older guy, both of who I would've moved mountains for, had given rides to, etc. They were both players, so looking back I'm happy I didn't end up with either one of them, but like you I did like them and had great conversations with them. There are other fish in the sea my dude. Don't get hung up on relationships that aren't working. There will be plenty more - you just need to be open to possibilities.
Thank you so much for trying to understand. I just feel inadequate,and unwanted. Just drinking and listening to music, i was feeling so down i didn't even go to work. Not many people try to understand that i've gotten literally no love when i was growing up, not even from my family. So i'm just a stray lonely wolf who wanders the streets at night trying to find my life. Trying to find a reason to live for this shit.
I mean you know by going out there and asking girls out myself, not going to an escort place to get some. Maybe i just don't understand love, but please don't beat me down, i'm hurting inside. I'm just attracted to bad women who hurt me, it's fucking disturbing, and i cry over this shit. I hate it, and can't understand myself.
Try a dating app, I'd suggest tinder that's full of sluts who wants some D.. Technically you still earnt it then bro
I feel like i lost all motivation to do anything. My heart feels so heavy and slow, i need to channel my emotions into something, but i've grown up with nothing. Lost all my friends who are now just memories, and that still hurts everyday, and it's been like 6 or 7 years now. I still think about them, but death in anything is hard for humans to just forget. No one has my back anymore, it's just me, and it's been just me for many years now. I have a hard time making new friends and it always hurts me inside doing that to such awesome people. I don't even know who i am anymore because i can't associate with anyone anymore. I spent my entire childhood up until high school with my bros until i lost them. It's kind of sad how i'm on here sharing my pathetic life struggles, but i really don't have anyone to talk to especially when i'm feeling down.
Hey, you recognize the problem at least. I think the reason you go for bad women who hurt you because you're lacking self esteem and feel it's what you deserve. Again, I was in the same boat, but I recognized what was happening and broke the cycle. My little sister, on the other hand, hasn't quite figured it out yet. Now that you know what you're drawn to you can avoid it and try something else. You will probably be pleasantly surprised. I certainly was. Just remember that it's ok to let people love you for you - it's going to be weird since you're not used to it - but there are some people out there who are filled with love and will want to offer it to you.
It's not even about her anymore. After meeting up with women they just say i'm not there type. I'll make them laugh every once in a while, tell them how beautiful they are, or just flirt. I just feel so awkward now, why should i even annoy women or bother them, i let the conversations come naturally to avoid awkwardness. I feel like when women accept my advances it's just to make me feel sad or just use me and toss aside like trash. I grew up with a really disfunctional family, my friend were always there to cheer me up and give me advice. I just feel so broken like a dead body, everything is just hitting me all at once. How do i find motivation to pursue my dreams... i can't move on, it's just to hard to move forward knowing my life is worth shit. Man i don't even know what to say anymore... Just confused and depressed. Never thought something so common was so hard for me to understand or even receive, i'm literally tearing up. I miss my friends.
Don’t get in a rut for to long man or it’ll take ya longer to get out of it. Stay single for a bit and figure out what u really want. When your ready get ya one of these mask n post a pic of u n it on tinder you’ll find what your looking for male or female.