So, let me first say, I do not have a grow. I have thought about it, I have planned one out, but nothing is done. My problem is, the extreme paranoia. Even without pot, I am paranoid. I live within 10 miles of a small-ish local airport, of which the loud "prop planes" take off from, and a couple hospitals, and an interstate, so both traffic and medical helicopters fly over. I have heard rumors that because of the woods and fields around, that there are aerial patrols. A group was recently busted with a large sum of pot a ways a way from here, and the word going around is that the narcotics task force knew about the large sum of pot, but waited until they all got together to take them down, and it was transparent the whole time. Maybe its my being up-to-date with my Breaking Bad episodes, but I have this vision of the DEA and police tracking my every move, rolling up and down my street, flying over my house scanning it with FLIR, watching every thing I do online, if i'm on the porch having a cig, every time I hear something rustling in the neighborhood (guaranteed its a coyote or other animals but still) I think its SWAT, or if a van parks down the street I think its a stakeout. Even though I would only be growing a very small number of pot plants, I feel like I am the great Heisenberg, and Hank is right on the edge of figuring it all out. Then, comes the other thoughts, of what I would do if I were caught, how that would change my life... my rule is "keep it a misdemeanor", not having enough plants to count as a felony, but still, it would alienate me from people, I'd never get a job, if I go back to school, and got financial aid, I'd lose that, I'd have to explain to people close to me what happened, some people might be understanding, others would shut me out and reject me. Even if you are in possession of some personal use, people tend to see you on the same pedestal as meth and crack dealers, and that you are out killing people and destroying the world. It has gotten to the point now, that if the house frame expands or contracts, or the wind blows, and I hear a bang/creak/anything, my eyes open, and I imagine them busting my door in. How do the more seasoned pros deal with this? How do you get sleep at night? I know there are guys out there with 3x-10x the felony number of plants, and they do just fine. Help!