I don't have anyone I can talk to about this, and I've been worrying about whether to post it on here or not for a long time.. Please no rude comments. I just have many regrets about someone who's passed. I don't really want to go into specifics about that to be honest. I think about them every night. I try not to cry, but I do. I literally have no friends, and I can't help think that's what I deserve, it's "karma". I'm so lonely. I can't talk to anyone, about anything.. I'm left to obsess about everything in my mind.. I've tried so many countless times to make friends, is it payback for being such a shitty person? I'm just so lonely, with these regrets haunting me. I've dealt with depressive feelings before, with positive thinking, but it's just becoming so increasingly hard.. I don't know what I'm looking for writing this. I don't know what to do..