De-realization and Weed ? ? ?

Hey guys !!

I've been going through alot of anxiety and stress lately and my brain just won't turn off and weed the last few weeks really changed for me. Instead of the usual symptoms of M.J, it instantly stopped making things enjoyable, I was bored of everything and would just sit there googling nonsense to pass time..I was having very short irregular panic attacks for a few seconds (heart rate would spike and I would stop breathing without realising sometimes up to a minute which is fuc$ed up).

Then one morning I woke up and felt extremely high, like a 7-10 on the ''how high are you, scale''. This normally happens when I vape till early in the morning and is pretty common among weed smokers. Thing was, I stopped vaping at 9pm and it was 10am...I just shrugged it off, got ready for work and plotted along with my day. I came home, checked my emails and I just tripped out staring at my browser and had a mini panic attack again with extreme anxiety that followed.

I felt..scared, like something really bad was about to happen but I didn't know what. I was overcome with crazy depression and over the next few days it got worse...and worse...and worse, until I fell into some sort of mental state which I could only describe as an immense feeling of being trapped in my own mind. It was like a light switch had just been turned off in my brain, this is when I just stopped smoking and start to Gym, eat well and get out of the house as much as possible...I mean, I started going on random walks for about an hour, sometimes 2 or 3 times a night (nature super relaxes me..I love rain and trees ect so it calmed me down a ton, sunglasses also really helped dim the light and calm me too..strange)

Now is day 5 of not smoking and I can control my thoughts more, I still feel strange and I seldom feel myself start to panic but its getting better. I'm scared to smoke, like..really fucking worried. This has been one of my worst experiences in life thus far. I don't hate the plant, I still see the value in it just like before all this, but I think this will keep me from smoking for a long ass time.

The main reason I posted this is because I have never had mental health problems or taken related medication. Weed has always been very enjoyable for me and I've kept it in moderation. Which is so strange, why did this happen to me, what lead to it..how can I avoid it in future. Has anyone experienced this before and if so, did it change your M.J habbits.

cheers guys ! look forward to hearing yall replies

 

yeh I might agree with you, except the fact that the last 3 years theres never been the slightest in bad effects for me...I don't think someone can go from completely fine to the next day extremely fucked up.

 

Guys, cheers for the blanket case replies...really helps NOT. I think it would be more like if I have a glass of wine every night(I don't drink but for the sake of the example)...one night it gets me totally fucked up after 3 years. I want to know or try and understand why this happened from people that experience the same shit. I'm not citing problems coming from M.J, because I just don't fucking know if its from M.J or something else (anxiety, depression, DP/DR).

I'm sick to death of seeing people like you 2 just throwing the blanket answer of..don't smoke weed. If you read, I acknowledged that it could be a problem that just popped up out of nowhere and I am taking a long break, if not forever. I want to know why out of nowhere, after 3 years of perfectly fine smoking this has happened. But hey, cheers anyway.

 

Just want to say thanks a ton for the replies, really helped me realise these forums aren't the place to seek help unless you want to be taken as some sort of joke. Peace.