i'm going to post my poetry here. feel free to read, ignore, comment, criticize, laugh or love. i've got tons, sooo....hope thats ok. Growth o how i remember a time when one would do me fine so how far have i gone? i have been away so long can you still see me? or have i disappeared.
The Ferris Wheel Part One The wind blew from the east A million lights lit up the dark "Step up" the young man said "Take a ride on Noah's Ark" "Grandpa, can we go?" The twins said without delay "Sure", the old man replied As he watched them run away Dr. Fogg's Carnival of Fun "Amazing Things that seem un-real" "Could it be?" the old man wondered aloud He would have to check out the ferris wheel Fifty six years ago In a place much like this place His first wife and son got on the ride And vanished without a trace The police had looked for clues But in the end there were none to be found He had to watch the carnival pack up and move While he had to stand around Eventually, he re-married New life, made many new friends They had two of their own children One of them had had twins But he never forgot his first family At nights it would tear him up inside This carnival show, over 50 years ago Their last ferris wheel ride Suddenly he felt a little scared A feeling of deja vous He would look for that ferris wheel But if he found it.. what would he do? Part Two He was about ready to give up One more place he thought he would try When in the darkness he saw something Out of the corner of his eye He had spotted the monster ride In the dark with no lights at all He knew it was the very same one By the details he could recall The seats were painted golden The lift itself was a dark brown A voice inside seemed to call out "Come on Daddy, sit down.." He knew that voice from anywhere But there was just no way it could be Willy had went missing Far back in 1953 But yet, it WAS Willy's voice Ooh, how he missed it so "Don't be afraid honey" The wind seemed to blow Julia? he knew it was her voice, but how? This defied everything he knew "Ooh honey, take a seat Willy and I are both waiting on you.." The old man threw away logic Took a seat, closed his eyes He felt the cold wind blow through his hair As he was lifted up into the skies The lights of the carnival faded Then they appeared bright once more Soon the ride was over And a worker opened the door.. Part Three The second his feet was on the ground His child ran to grab his leg "Ooh Daddy, lets all ride the merry-go-round" "Willy, you know better than to beg!" Julia laughed and kissed him The second her lips touched his skin He realized he was no longer an old man He was 25 again He knew the calender said 1953 In Korea, peace they would declare Eisenhower was President Frank Sinatra ruled the air Meanwhile, he still held 56 years of memories Of his other life with all it's charms "Ooh Daddy, I'm so glad we came.." He hugged Willy in his arms.. Still, not far away in another time The twins called their parents, distraught Who called the Police, who came right away Everyone searched the entire lot They questioned the owner, a Dr. Fogg Who said in a voice quiet and low "Something like this happened once before A long, long time ago.." After a month with no clues A memorial service was held in his name Mostly attended by friends and family But there was one strange man who came He introduced himself as Willie He left a flower and a poem He wrote: "Your the best Dad, I ever had Thank you for coming home..."
Tick what makes you run? everything is beautiful experience pain and experience truth. do you love death? it hurts a lot more than life. all the bones are one; she dances in a ring of fire... we couldnt get much higher as the plane crashes down, the world crashes up. violent fire and everything every which way; nothing left. the last trip alone freedom shouts for us to penetrate the mind. the city sleeps tonight, i can feel it in the air feel the fight in the air. dont dance off the mountain for the fall is cleansed. you will appear as you truly are the devil taking my life.
i dont really "get" this one, but i wrote it when i was fucked up so it meant something to me then. the ending is just odd. lol. Tracers how many of you are really alive? watch the stars slide by and hop on their ride say goodbye to what you knew see what you want disappear it gets better the vulture circles above me still i lay fragile devouring conciousness and it's a monster shaping the edges to be a forever blurry feeling trust what you already know dont ever let it go my love, my hero come dance with me feel as free as me i am already gone as i hear the jazz play in my head so soft hold my hand desperately i cry i no longer want to fly i have to get down from here lost in the pain feel the lyrics enter you from all directions the trance i enter when you enter me from all sides is the way i need to feel forever and more and more
Cold so cold. cold. cold. nowhere to go. back and forth between conciousness hoping it will end when it does if it does say no more what happens next? you take even more and so it repeats the devil's treats. the final crime all liquid is slime nothing can escape i'm feeling very faint the world is going black i dont think im coming back are you ready for a new reality?
My Poison red fire sunrise sets in my eyes black palm tree sky so very high sit with legs crossed the sun is lost choose what i see it might be me flying across the sand give me your hand i'll show you the way trust what i say falling down and never hitting sand fall through the earth take a deep breath land is falling away i have been betrayed i made you listen cold tears glisten welcome to the dream where no one heard you scream it's way too late welcome to the free state do you understand what i'm telling you? this has progressed far enough you need to end this now before it takes life again my heart dies a little each time i need you to hear me out talking in my head insane listen it sounds like a train come back it's happening again scream loud at my brain scrambled thoughts cloudy yet clear my brain i no longer hear it's over. i've lost. i give up. i'm done.
My Plea shocking in and out i think i hear my brain shout how amazing is the feeling of doubt? back and forth i sway wondering how i got this way in and out i go enjoying every minute of the show i cant think straight i have another eight i need no more i just ate this part i truly hate but if i can just push past i know this shit wont last and when it's passed... that needs to happen fast. sorry i'm just spilling my guts we will make it through these ruts how many of them there are we have made it so far but hear this plea you must this plea that i just just thought for us right now to whom do you bow? i didnt know til just now did you know i feel the ice? c'mon just roll the dice and pay the ultamite price i knew that was the feeling i could feel the darkness stealing and taking away from me everything that was he. and this is where it will end my life i no longer defend this is where i lose it all at the end of the music hall this heavy load i feel i'm going back to be real the end like i said the monster has been fed.
Lost will it ever end? there's nothing left for me to defend my forces have dropped everything has stopped i'm taking care of this a world i will not miss such a waste of a life no, not because of the knife been dealt a hand that had no good thing but everyone around me lives like a king they never have a problem or a care i have no idea how to get there i am completely lost the line has been crossed turn out the light for this is the last night.
The Everything my scenery is so here so normal its fear the everything is blinding the all of it is ever lasting now is the time to be here i cannot escape now matter how hard i try it bounces right back to before i see only the everything blending it's all together and one but it's the same thing i've always seen morphing and turning and swirling and becoming real what is this i feel completely thrown away and into somewhere i do not know everything seems so familiar so quickly and easily i can get here i can show you how but many will deny what youve heard is a lie my scenery is mine so normal i need it i have figured out how to escape it.
Live to Die deeply in love with death can feel every breath i do not want to take but i will for your sake a sad day for all the day i finally fall but i'm not ready no matter how unsteady this may be to you it is for me too i know how to do it it'll be quite a hit but you'll never know you'll never grow this goes away as you must i know the feeling of lust but listen just listen you see my face glisten with the tears that will fall and scattered all over the wall i live to die no matter how high i fly Untitled everytime i feel like like everything will be alright life turns upside down life s---s on me trying to bring me down my body is getting weak my future is looking bleak my mind is starting to freak there doesnt seem to be a way out i feel like no one can hear me shout like i'm stuck in outer space get me out of this place i'm going to die here that is my biggest fear
I Am The Clown. i am the clown i tell you i must die i only frown everything is a lie i'm always down i'm really fuckin shy put on the crown just run and hide lets see whats shown i think i died my mind is blown yes i know you cried i'm going down below but what i felt inside the greatest honor best owe'd. the chair is locking me in this may be the end.
The Ferris Wheel... after reading the poem, so many questions enter my head. What had happened? Who are you? I think there's much more to it than just a ride on the ferris wheel...
thats for the reader to think about =] i feel like i could go further with it though....but it's long enough already. haha.
1950-1953 Korean War. I can almost see it. I'm only 36 years old, but I grew up in Korea with the image of the war and strong anti communism propaganda.
ahhh yes, "He knew the calender said 1953 In Korea, peace they would declare" whereabouts in korea were you?
I wasn't born during the 50's, I was born in the 70's. I, or my father rather, moved a lot when he was in Korea. I attended 5 different school in 5 years. One for each grade. But my family tree will say I'm from In-Dong, an area near Daegu, in North Kyung Sang province. It's just north-east of the Nak-Dong River where the South Korean army had drawn their 'Maginot line' during the start of the war before the Americans arrived.
Left Behind we're going to do it all baby our empire's never going to fall couldn't imagine a better place than being able to see your face with you everything is right with you every single night when will i see you again i'll save these words til then but i'm afraid... our fire has begun to fade we are so far away and getting farther every day 800 miles separates us made it 6 long months with success you've soared already more do i want to? what for? you've already made it, you don't need me anymore i barely made it off shore but i miss you so much my soul is sore i've been left behind my unconcious mind more than one stupid decision that i made with precision is the only thing keeping us apart trust me, it is breaking my heart.
blue waves of lies swirl around in my head everyone says their goodbyes as we wave to the dead the ladies in white kill the men at night storming in and taking innocent lives and breaking everything you believe this is not the time to grieve weakness is all they will see this is the time to flee quick, before it's too late i am not the master of my fate.
Denied I want to fly high into the skies and let myself feel freedom out in the vastness of space in a forever black blanket taking over everything. Where am I? Have I found another world I know exactly how to get here and it is the greatest feeling I have so why is it denied to me? Why can't I? Why can't I fly? Why can't I fly high into the skies?
Without You i'm trying so hard cant you fucking tell i know you see me struggling gasping for air trying to continue on but frequent blunders hinder my healing i need you to go on go on and live your life i'll be fine without you i'll be dying inside feeble atempt to hide i can't go on this ride without you by my side the air is poison to me without you here i am struggling gasping for air my eyes close slowly the darkness, so holy takes over my life every second of every day, my love engulfing me.