Hey City, Ever feel like sometimes your literally going crazy? Or am I the only one? I mean alot of the times I literally cannot stop thinking. Tonight for example, before I typed this post I was thinking about stuff thats not going to be happening till Monday and its not even a big deal. Now don't take this as anxiety, I'm not worried or fearing anything. Just always thinkning. I try to write my thoughts down and reflect on them later. Some thoughts I have are really good too. I also feel myself becoming more demanding of myself, shit NEEDS to get done I feel. This includes work and home. Most of the time I am talking to myself in my head, rationalizing thoughts and ideas. But its odd, my internal self is different that my external self, or the person I portray on a daily basis. My Internal self is more confident and outgoing. I think of him as being everything I want to become in a sense. My internal self is perfect because it does not face the judgement of everyday life. Am I just crazy or does everyone else kinda feel themselves in similar situations?
I know exactly what your talking about. The me in my head is witty, sharp, and I always have the right thing to say, but the me that everyone else sees is a slow stupid stoner. I can use impeccable logic to find an answer to almost anything in my head, but once face to face with the actually situation I tend to freeze.
Haha. I was always self consious about this as well. Guess I don't have to be anymore. We should start a club.
I'm the same in that sense. But i'm also just crazy, good example, about 5 mins ago I realised I was sat at my pc, in nothing but my boxers, I have no recolection of how this occured, Needless to say i was freaked! I'm serious! Also last night, woke up, was sure I shouldnt get out of bed cause I thought the sucurity camera form work was abaove my bed? :S and i had NO idea where i really was. Getting scared atm.