Hey guys.. I'm not sure where to put this.. So here's where it will go.. Now I live at home w/ my mom's.. We have her parents in the same house, but nextdoor (yea, my grandparents, but more like second parents....) And I'm fucking going crazy right now, watching this happen.. My grandfather just got back from the hospital on monday, and he still dont look like my grampa (he fell one morning, wacked his head, and started bleeding internally from the blood thinners he was on..) After brain surgery, and 2 months in the hospital, he's back.. He cant get outta bed, cant talk he only makes noises. I mean I have to help my mom change this poor guys daipers.. This isnt how he wanted to be remembered, but that's a different story.. My gramma just got home sunday (the day b4 him) from a planned surgery on a tuma in her leg.. My gramma's aunt (who is still alive, for now) has about 2 weeks to live.. So I just dont know what the fuck to do.. I dont even know if I'm looking for an answer or anything.. I just needed to type this shit out, cuz I cant go back and talk to anyone.. I'm supposed to be the man of the house, the one they look at when they need something done.. I cant show, that I'm going crazy... I lost my father when I was 15, but I didnt hae to watch him die. (atleast I didnt realize at the time, he fought w/ alcoholism his whole life) and I made it through... (After a few attempts at the unthinkable) Now that wont happen this time, cuz I'm older, and understand things more.. I just need to type this out, and get some opinions.. I dont think I will be getting any answers, or I dont expect them atleast.. Thanks for reading..
Sorry to hear that... and I dont really know what to say. I hope things get better for you and your grandparents.
Keep your chin up! I know.. easy for me to say. But I was in a situation like yours. And life forces you to grow up faster then you want. Men are supposed to be pillars of stability no matter what happens, even if a father wasn't there to teach you how. Hardships like this will destroy you unless you can accept them as inevitable. I shed a tear for all of it, and I'll be smokin to your gramps tonite! Respect is earned and you earned it bro. (+rep)
Thanks a lot guys.. I appreciate all of that.. I'll let ya know ho everything turns out... K+ back at all of ya
Hey man, Just keep stepping forward. One foot infront of the other. I understand loss way too well (having lost several family members and close friends myself). Everyone deals with these things in different ways. I know that thinking more about the good times always helped me out. We're all rootin for you man, and don't hesitate to come here just to get stuff off your chest. I don't know what else to say really. I hope things start getting better for you soon, and that you can find peace in all of this.
It's good that you typed all that out. Sometimes things just need to be said; not necessarily spoken, but expressed. It really can help in times of need. Every man has his breaking point. It's all about what you do when it happens. I'm really sorry to hear about it, man. It's never easy coping will loss or hurt, but it's how you deal with it that counts. Life can be a truly hard experience, but, like Cottons said, you just have to keep putting one foot in front of the other, to keep standing. Hope things get better, and you can always come to the City for help. -Boubon.
guys, thanks a lot for all the support! I seriously appreciate it!! My gramma went to the emergency room today.. she had a blood clot in her leg.. My friend (who is an EMT) said there's nada to worry, cuz it's "only" a blood clot, n she should make it through it, not a problem.. I've just been going crazy.. I'm even gett'n gripe @ work, cuz of the time that I have to take out, here n there, to help out w/ the family.. Listen, I dont even know what else to say, cuz I'm blazed off my ass, so peace guys, n thanks again, luv to all!!