Well the last thtead I made gto all fuckd up with people pissed and whatever. Just wanted to vent a littlr more and just whatever I giess People tell me "think of youe family", but I can't. She was all I had. Her and my kid, but I'm thinkinf she's going to abort it so what's the fucking point? My granfpa was the lasr real family I had. My mom died a year after I was born, didn't knoq my dad. My dogs dead, not a dollar to mt nane. Just fuck it man. No job anymore, no fiance, no kid, dog and grandpa are dead, no money, no car, best friends gone now, and soon no roof over my head. What the fukc do I have left???? Yrah the air force or whatever but how fucking far would that taje me? Just notging left to live for and I just don't give a shit. I'm not looking for pity, I just need somwhere to vent and I don't have anywherw else. I just nees a frined to talk to s sorry everyone. I know I should stopp drinking but even if I do the worlds just going to come back ad rape me with another white hot iron in thw fucknig ass. So fuck it. And I'm almost gone of beers. Fiuck me.