Long story short - I can't really get a good feeling from weed anymore. For a long time, I use to get really stoned and I was happy, but a couple months ago, close to about a year ago, my highs have turned to depression sessions. If I'm not constantly busy doing something and I have a little time to sit and think, it turns to me thinking about how I can better myself physically, verbally, and mentally. Sometimes spiritually. When I'm high, I'm always thinking I'm doing so much wrong in the world and I'm extremely self conscious about little things like the way I'm standing, or sitting, or talking or laughing, or how I talk to people and stupid shit like that. Anyone else feel/felt like this? Any solutions?
I'm not a bad person. I have a good life. I'm a good person to people in the most part. I'm more worried about the fact I get really worried about what I'm doing in that situation and how I'm sitting and shit like that. Its dumb.
In terms of psychological reflection, for me, pot is akin to mushrooms lite; it doesn't allow me to run from myself. It brings up problems head-on. Now, it could very well be that cannabis is the main problem for you, and that you should stop immediately. I know it's tough to ascertain just how serious cannabis is with so much lying on both sides, but alas what we do know is that it effects people very differently person-to-person. For you, pot might have lost it's utility, and now it's a problem. Most people over-use substances at some point in their lives. The good news is that you over-indulged in pot, not heroin. So, while the journey to sobriety won't be easy, it's won't be too hard, either. I don't know the causation, friend, but I do know that you need to cut the shit and get sober immediately, and for an extended period of time. Pot might not be the main problem in your life, but it certainly isn't helping. Give it 2-3 months. It won't be shit after the first week. Trust me dude, I was sober from 20-24 years old after smoking a half ounce a day from 16-20. It ain't shit, and I only missed the sativa's.
Last time I smoked was Halloween night at a party. I smoked two blunts and that was a good high because I was busy talking with people and such. I havent smoked since then till about 4 days ago, when I took two hits. I didnt really feel anything.
Sounds like you got that "drug vaccine", have you gotten any vaccines lately? Like Flu shot? Maybe it was laced with the drug vaccine. http://abcnews.go.com/Health/Technology/story?id=118192&page=1