I am a 40 plus year old mostly gay man and daily enjoyer of awesome weed for the last 3 years. Weed has changed my life in so many amazing ways and I would not be the person I am without it nor would I want to even think about a non 420 life. I love weed! I really want to have gay sex high. By that I mean either top or bottom with a man engaged in non oral sex. The problem is that everytime I try to do it I get really bad paranoia and freak out. It gets bad, like I will look up at my partner and become convinced he is waiting to kill me as soon as he cums or something equally messed up. I have used different strategies like adjusting the type, strain, and amount of weed. Everytime I have a smoke session I am either going to jerk it for hours or I am going to hit my husband up for a BJ if he is around. This tells me my problem is not with feeling sexual or engaging in sexual behaviour high. I tried to have sex with the guy who lives next door (DON'T JUDGE HUBBY DOES NOT MIND WHO I SLEEP WITH) while his wife was at work last week and while I was high. Once again I just flipped out and had to leave with only a quick hand job. Usually when I spend his house husband days with him and I am not high we are good and have fun together We both are happy. Today I decided I would try having sex with a woman high. It's been like two years since I last had sex with a woman so I am lucky I have adventurous friends who like to help me out. I called up a woman I have known for maybe 6 months and was able to have sex with her no problem. I am sure someone is going to say just have high sex with woman, but that misses the mark as I really have this need. To be honest I need to be sexually dominated while out of my mind and that is only going to happen with a man. My question is has anyone had trouble with paranoia and sex while high and did you overcome it? I am desperate. I know it seems silly but I am really upset by this. It has make be distraught and shaken me. Please help.
Its during or before. Usally makes the after non existaint. Time before last I tried with a hookup from Growlr. We got high together on some indica (Glue I think) and I was feeling super relaxed I was fine for like the first 10 minutes then all of a sudden the negative thoughts started and I had to stop and get out from under him and leave his house. I went home, broke out the toys and finished the job myself.