Can’t get high

New to this but desperation has me in search of answers. I smoke weed everyday. When I wake up, after I do something, before I do something, before I work out, before I eat, before bed, even sometimes when I wake up in the middle of the night and can’t sleep. Literally everyday. 8-10 times a day for about 5 years now. I am one of those people who literally need weed to be able to handle everything going on in my head. I am a rape victim and have flashbacks, ptsd, and anxeity/panic.
I am 30 and have pretty much always smoked weed, when I was younger weed would F*** me up. Like paranoid, bugging, all that. The first time I dabbed I turned green and TRIPPEDDDD HARD. When I realized that a lot of the time weed was making me feel better and alcohol was making me feel terrible I quickly adjusted. I had thought it had to be the weed making me so paranoid and miserable. But unsurprisingly it was alcohol and I have not drank in almost 4 years. I realized that weed gives me body and my brain which often feel like they are going to explode at times a break. I am self medicated as I live in RI and I have always been skeptical of actually trying to get medical card well because of the nature of the whole thing, and because I was scared and terrified to tell people I was raped for ten years that it basically made me into a crazy person. I quickly adjusted my smoking habits after quitting drinking to basically all day everyday. And now also unsurprisingly I never get high. I have taken so many tolerance breaks. I smoke blunts, joints, bowls, bongs, and I literally always have a golden owl vape on me. I ate two space cakes in Amsterdam and literally felt nothing which is crazy because edibles were always the one thing to really mess me up and make me paranoid. Last year I took a 70 mg gummy worm and bartended a 12 hour shift with literally no effect whatsoever. The only thing that weed does for me right now is make me a little more sociable, like have the ability to Be nice people. Not kidding lol. Idk what to do. I am spending so much on weed and t-breaks make me a little crazy, literally I feel jittery. I read a bunch of posts similar to mine but they mostly suggest everything I have already tried.