What a day, only a half an hour more and I get to go home and smoke a joint to relax and forget about the day from hell. I have always been a cancer nurse and so I wouldnt lose whats left of my sanity, I transferred to the OB/Nursery unit. It has to be one of the happiest places on earth on most days. But today, for almost an hour I tried to bring this baby back and all my efforts were of no use. To have to look at a mother after she has spent 16 hrs in hard labor and tell her there was nothing I could do..........it tears my heart out. When I did cancer work, at least the older people had a chance to live their life out the way they wanted to. Here, the babies are so innocent and it pains me that they weren't even given the chance to take one breath. But anyway, this part of the hospital is bringing out the motherly side in me that I didnt know existed. I never wanted children but I love them dearly (I now raise the 7 yr old from hell). LOL. But I feel so rewarded just nurturing these critical care babies and rocking them.........it scares me that maybe in the future I may want to have kids. Because I always swore...........ABSOLUTELY NO KIDS!!!!!!!! Well, my babies are crying so I have to go. I hope everyone is enjoying the start of their weekend. Burn one for me until I can get home.