Apologies in advance for what is sure to be a long post. May as well start at the beginning, I met this girl 4 years ago as I was turning 19. We had a pretty good relationship until around 4 months ago when I decided I wanted space (as I had been with her pretty intensely for the last 2 years we had been together) We broke up and she went on a 2 month madness spree, drinking loads, doing stuff with random boys etc. Whilst I lay low, spent some time with my mates and chatting to a few select girls. Recently she has worked her way back into my group of friends and we all went for a weekend away and I ended up sleeping with her again. Now I'm not so sure I made the right decision. I've fooled around with other girls since we broke up but she slept with a boy I know and did god knows what else with those I don't. In the time apart she has grown up and matured alot (main reason for break up was her lack of independence and partly unwillingness to go and have 'fun' out with mates) She is also up for smoking and *unmentionables* which was always a taboo subject before. She tolerated blazing but nothing else. She wants to get back with me but I don't know if I can, after how she acted in the 2 months after the break up. Or if it is the right decision. If I don't see her everything is fine and I begin to sort my life out and chat to girls etc. But once I see her and we chat it throws me off for a week or two. Help. What should I do?