Hi Blades and Bladettes I know you guys probably don't know me well, but I would like to share a little bit: I've had to deal with a lot when it comes to moods. Terrible mood swings. Quitting jobs that weren't bad right then and there and not telling anybody, ups and downs thoughout a shift, saying many awful things, ruining my home life with my parents(I'm 21 now), rage, extreme irritability over nothing much, if anything at all, irrational rants, weird thoughts;wishing I was dead,wanting to throw away my life.. Reckless behavior, anxiety, OCD, Delusions of starting my own restuarant.. etc etc, Now marijuana is, as we all know, is very calming. Thats the reason I, for myself, consider it medicine. It can change me like THAT, usually in a good way(besides paranoia and anxiety). But it just hasn't cut it. It still has a special place in my heart. I'm gonna get an 8th tomorrow. But, you can't always smoke, ya know? And it doesn't make me feel normal in the right way. But it is very enjoyable. Weed is nice in the short term, but I've realized that in reality it's not the best medicine. I'm not trying to offend anyone(i've said worse things before haha). I've gone on and off lamictal(anti-convulsant/Mood stabilizer) a couple times. Once I start feeling normal i quit taking it, which is absolutly the wrong way to take psychiatric medicine. I've started taking it again for obvious reasons. It's actually a real good drug in my opinion. It has helped way more than ANYTHING. I am starting to feel so much more normal than I've felt in a long time. More logical. It's great. I feel like I have future ahead of me that I can control and be steady with it. The best way to really describe it it normal. But, it's still not quite enough of a dose, you have work your way up. I'm on a very low amount. But have taken higher doses months ago, and noticed how well it worked. If anybody is struggling with things like this, you can talk to me, even though I'm a stranger over the net, I'm a nice guy. I hope I don't get any big ideas and quit taking it.. I hope to be a more positve member of our sacred community. Thanks for reading and Good evening to you GC.