Hi guys, this is my first thread as yes, I'm new to this page and the smoking life pretty much. But not really, I'll explain. Before I met my boyfriend, I was never into smoking. And when we met, he told me he did but he wasn't at the time. Apparently I met him when he was taking a break. So later on in our relationship, he started smoking again. At first it was pretty recreational, here and there, then there were people that we knew that he smoked with, and now he smokes many times a day every day. At least 3 times a day, at most 6 or 7. What's wrong with that? Nothing I suppose. Except for the fact that I don't smoke a lot and my boyfriend and I are in a situation that a) I think he uses smoking as a crutch in order to get through the day and b) I think I'm at the point where I might need to smoke to get through the day but I'm not there yet (in terms of being able to smoke that much). So most times if I'm stressing about things or wanting to talk things out or sort things out, he'll be high and then I'll get frustrated because he's high. And I don't know if the frustration is that I'm not as high or I don't get high that much, or I'm frustrated that he smokes. See, my boyfriend lives with his mom. But it's not like a bum thing where he didn't try to leave and he lives with his mom. The thing is that his dad passed away late last year, my boyfriend's the man of the house now (understandable), but his mom doesn't do anything to help with the house or the family business. My boyfriend and I are the responsible ones while his mom and her new boyfriend act like irresponsible teens. So when his dad passed, he kind of got stuck. And now his mom and sometimes his grandparents get him to do everything for them (I'm dating a Russian, btw) and they don't do anything for themselves, and my boyfriend and I get stuck with the short end of the stick at least 99% of the time. So I get pissed because of how unfair these things are, then he smokes and gets over it and I'm stuck still being pissed. And it's like this all the time. Things that I'm like "you don't see this as a problem?!" he just shrugs/smokes off and he just thinks it's funny. So now I'm the one wanting to smoke as much as he does (or close to it anyway) in order to deal with the many things that we're dealing with and I'm wondering how you go about doing that? And what it's like to go from someone who doesn't smoke a lot to someone who smokes all the time? I guess I'll start that thread with those issues. I'll be glad to elaborate/continue on some topics later...so please ask me about anything else that's going on because I really need someone to talk to, lol.