I'm just gonna learn everything, and take it day by day, I just do better with learning directly. I wanna make sure I'm doing it right
Fortunately for you, buddhism is not about a "right" way. It is about getting in touch with YOUR true nature. Not doing what other people tell you. I understand that a lot of people like learning in person, though. Understand that your circumstances aren't accidental. You are exactly where you need to be.