Believe it or not you don't completely control yourself, everything you hear, see, and are around is a huge part in making you, you. Now ask yourself, why do you do what you do? There are millions of things you wouldn't do, think, be or think about doing because what the world says about them. Of course not everything everyone else said should be viewed as nonsense but think about it, is what you're doing YOU doing it, or are you doing it because its what others think you should do. Are you your own person? On the other hand, what do i know? This may make no sense. I'm only beginning to get into philosophy.