First of all, I really wanted to say sorry. Idk I just feel like I've said some things that might have pissed people off. That's really not who I am but I'm just going through a tough time and a lot of changes. I'm still really young and I'm under so much pressure to do shit right and make something of myself. You have NO idea. 80% of my life I feel so alone. Half my childhood I am trying not to remember, and I swear, for the past 6 years, it's like my family has been non-existent. It's hard to find people that you can back up on when you don't have a family. However, recently the best thing happened to me. I met this chick...and I've only had one other friend like her EVER in my life (but she moved far away..). She's so fucking sick. It's easy to meet people and make friends, but it's so hard to make friends that will last you a lifetime. Friends that you trust with everything, and can do anything with. Even though everyone is great, most people aren't down to earth, completely free-spirited and down for ANYTHING. I met that person and I really want to cry because even though I sound like a complete retard right now...you have no idea how empty I felt before. Otherwise I have weird dreams now about how life is going work out, and I get really nervous. Even though I've done shit the right way so far and don't regret anything, I'm still really scared. If I fuck up..well fuck I don't even want to think what my life will end up as. Working to live – that's my worst fear.
Dreams are dreams man... I've had thousands of them and that is what they are.. Just a random collaboration of thoughts. Put the work in avoid partying too much and putting off work. Have an open mind, be kind to others, be healthy... Not many things can go wrong if you keep your head on straight as my coach likes to tell the team.
dreams are dreams...everyone says that. everyone stops righ there and then..because what is a dream? like u said a collaboration of thoughts. honestly, i am so sick of the way life is. and i know there is no way around it..but i think i want to make my dreams something. some say thats naive, but it really isn't. dreams are goals, and goals are achievable. and i am too determined to achieve them. That's partically why I am so off-beat these days. I am so scared to dissapoint myself..and those that I've told this very same things - deams are something.
I always differentiate dreams from goals... that's just my personal anal(haha) word choice. I have aspirations I have goals I have many things I wish to accomplish... However, when I'm snoozing for the night that is when I dream. I misinterpreted your first post. If you have yet to mess up, why would you begin to mess up now? Be different, don't follow the crowed as they will all end the same.
ya dude, for now it's been working but making me super anxious. and i guess what I meant was that more pple shoudl make dreams into goals. We all instanly refute dreams as possibilities. I think that's why so many poeple are 40 and live to work. They never got outside the box..never fell away from the crowd. taking that risk scares the shit out of me. i would say i'm not the average person. more insane and willing to try way more. but thanks for all your words!
you said youre young. I think you should view this music video. [ame=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d-diB65scQU]YouTube - Bobby McFerrin - Don't Worry Be Happy[/ame] chill, bro. Don't take little things so serious that it affects how you feel all the time.