So for the past 24 days or so I've been fasting, not eating or drinking from sunrise to sundown. This is also known as Ramadan to those of who you know, and ever since this month of fasting began I've stopped smoking weed. But then I had a really bad day and just needed to calm down before I did anything stupid and so I smoked . After that I've been doing it every so often at night to fall asleep and just relax which was a nice high, no bad trip. However, the past two times I've been out with my friends I've been having these horrible trips. And last night's just pushed me to the edge >.< So I'm smoking with my friends after I broke my fast and I take one hit out of the bong and I milked it pretty well . I was fine until the high finally kicked in After that I felt like I was having out of body experiences, like I was watching my own life happen before my eyes. As I leaned down I could feel everything and it was overwhelming. Slouching down was overwhelming as my body felt every movement I made, grasping my hands together was weird as well like everything was too much. I should also say that I'm an introvert and talk to myself a lot. So, with that said these thoughts kept racing into my head, I felt dead. I knew then and there that I needed to just go home and rest and being with my friends was not going to help. So, I got home and when I did I ate, drank water, took a bath, did some pushups etc and I was slowly coming back to my senses but slowly I would fall back into my thoughts overwhelming me. As I watched everything I felt like it was all happening frame by frame by frame, I don't know how to explain it. I looked at myself in the mirror and I felt like i wasn't myself, like I was surprised to even see myself as I am. Looking at myself in the mirror, I wondered how this all came to be. I looked at my eyes and they were right about to shut, blood shot red, and I could feel a throbbing in my eyes. During the entire time I felt my heart beating harder and harder and as I looked around the back of my head was throbbing as well, which I find explainable being that the occipital lobe is at the back. I tried to do whatever I could to get down from the high but I just felt dead in the end. I started to react slowly as to not startle myself with any sudden movement. Finally I knocked out and when I woke up I still felt the depersonalization and still do now. Nothing is the same and I feel like the bad trip really just got the best of me. I'm not sure why I felt the way I did when I smoked with my friends, maybe it's the amount I took? Maybe it's because of the lack of energy in my body being that I'm fasting and am almost always fatigued? Or, maybe it's the weed? Maybe it's a combination of the above? Idk... But whatever it is, a part of me won't rest until I find out. So, for now I feel like I should stop smoking, take a break until Ramadan is over which is will be on Saturday. And instead of smoking some of the stuff my friend has I'll be smoking with another person who grows himself. I wanna know why this happened to me and I wanna know how I can stop it. I'm seeing my psychologist this Thursday to talk to her about my depression anger and my introvert personality, should I talk to her about the bad trip I had as well? Maybe it has something to do with me being how I am psychologically?