Always naseaous, bad thoughts while high

This is my first post and I've only been smoking for a few months and it used to be an amazing experience, but I need some help. Not sure if this is the right topic to ask on but recently I cant smoke or else I get very naseaous. I used to get stoned and I would be perfectly fine, but now I always get "spinny" and feel like I'm going to throw up. It's not a naseau in my stomach but more so in my head. I can hyper focus on things while high, and if I do that now I get an insane feeling of accelerating extremely fast and it looks like I'm going "warp speed." Its honestly one of the most intense feelings I've ever felt but it isnt a good one.

I cant sleep it off either because if I close my eyes I start spinning and falling into an abyss. I've tried "breaking through" to see if what would happen but it just leads to almost vomiting and I have to open my eyes.

I've always had very vivid feelings and thoughts while high, for example a few weeks ago I was able to imagine myself in a cartoony video game blowing up cars and stuff, and I could super jump and I was able to feel the ground when i walked and everything. I used to always see shapes and figures when listening to music and imagine flying through space and through stars. I've seen hallucinations.

I miss the euphoria I used to get, and it seems like that is gone. I also get very shitty thoughts, I feel like I become a psychopath. I lose the love and care for people I really do care about. For example, I see a thousand flaws in all my friends, myself, my parents and girlfriend. I feel like I dont care or love any of them and I know this isnt true when I'm sober but it freaks me out.

I'm happy with where I am in life and I dont know why I would be feeling these things if weed truly does force you to realize your true feelings. All of this makes me want to quit but I just keep trying in hope that I'll have a good high again, I always get nervous to smoke because I'm not sure if I'm about to spend the next few hours nauseous. Anyone have any advice?

 

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